Under my Hat

Christmas Day... I don't really feel it this year. I mean... my daughters seem happy enough, but both of them know about Santa now.. and where I've tried to explain that Santa is the spirit of Christmas.. and dwells in every heart during the holiday season, I'm not quite sure they get it.  I realize that this may be the last Christmas morning I am woken early to open presents under the tree. I won't be here next Christmas... but that's okay. I know even my youngest has accepted the fact that I'm moving out... in fact she's asked me a few times about it.. and if she can have my room when I'm gone. LOL.... kinda seems a bit funny once you think about it.  They left "Santa" cookies on the table beside the tree.. and I took a big bite before realizing it wasn't actually a cookie.. but an ornament they made from homemade playdoh.. the mixture is 2 cups of flour and 1 cup of salt... I had already swallowed a small chunk before the salt assaulted...

Been through ice the last few days... lots of time to take off between now and the end of the year... but I will get it in. I tend to not worry about much of anything lately. There's no need.. life is perfect... or at least headed in a perfect direction. I am still irritated at my boss and don't feel that I can truly talk to her without wanting to slap some sense into her... and I'm not a violent person... I don't like the feelings she provokes in me. I haven't felt those feelings before. I would never contemplate seriously hurting anyone on purpose... but with her.. I just want answers... show me WHY you would do such a thing. Not a whole lot I can do about it now.. I will just ride it out until I can go elsewhere... it won't be much longer anyway. I got new glasses yesterday. They are the first plastic frames I've had in 30+ years... black and simple. I actually am growing to like them in a hurry. I spent my time driving to and from the city on the phone...