Under my Hat

Haven't been posting a whole lot lately... I seem to blow off a lot of steam in the site threads... but not a whole lot of it is very deep. Of course my mind isn't working at full capacity at the moment.  I have a total of 142.5 hours on this two week's paycheck... and will be working tomorrow to finish it all up.  Today is my birthday... 48 years old... sometimes I feel a bit old.. then I realize that I'm only a day older than I was yesterday... and I refuse to let it all catch up with me too quickly.  I am living my life each day... and trying to squeeze in a bit extra from time to time.  It's really all I can do at the moment.  I've been pressing the issue of a detailed assignment at another center to my supervisors.... and maybe I'm getting somewhere.  I don't really know when it's going to happen, but I'm positive it's getting closer. The air went out here about 4 days ago... my daughters have been in school during the day... and my s...

We all walk through life with a variety of masks... I wear one for my daughters... at least to a certain extent... I wear one for my dad... so he doesn't realize how much he pisses me off much of the time... I wear one for my supervisor... so she doesn't see how incompetent I think she is... I'm sure there are more... but I try to get away with wearing as few masks as I can... I long for the day when I can be me... who I am... and I am that person.. with certain people in my life.  I just choose not to cause issues that I can't do anything about at the moment.. so I continue living my life and trying to make changes... I do see it heading in a much better direction... but it's amazing how just being and saying everything you want to be and say... is so invigorating...  I appreciate the ability to get to do that.  It goes far beyond the distance between us.. and the distance doesn't matter... it's a minor inconvenience..  I don't see how other people cho...

I've been getting in a bit of Comp time... not sure I need it.. as I already have more time than I'll be able to take.  ...but I'm sure I can find a time to take some time off... I'm already looking forward to some time away.   My supervisor keeps telling me that she's making inquiries to put me an a temporary duty station at another center.   Not sure where that's going to be.. but I'm hoping it gives me the experience I need to move forward with my career. I'm hoping that things work out for me at Harper's Ferry... if I can pull that off, I should start at over 70k a year... I can actually move out and afford to support my daughters with that salary... especially since it's far enough away from the city to live more cheaply than in the big city itself.  Plus.. I'll be 30 minutes from where I want to be... which is close enough. It's all seeming to fall into place.. just like things are supposed to be. Dad is still driving me nuts... ...

We are going to have a Government Accounting Office audit next month... my supervisor came to me and asked me if I'd be interested in having a 160 day detail... as a vocational manager on another center... after thinking briefly about this.. I jumped at the chance... I believe they're trying to get me off the center before the auditors come because they know I will spill my guts about everything I know... I don't play the "let's-keep-quiet-and-sweep-everything-under-the-rug game"  ...It's really a win-win situation though... this will give me the experience I need to go to the next level... at the same time, they will pay my regular salary... actually more since I may be detailed into a GS11 position..  my hotel, rent me a car.. and give me up to 71 dollars a day for meals and incidentals... plus they'll pay for me to come home every other weekend. I told my spouse and daughters about it... and they support me 100 percent... as long as I can Skype wit...