Time Moves Forward... And So Should We.

We all walk through life with a variety of masks... I wear one for my daughters... at least to a certain extent... I wear one for my dad... so he doesn't realize how much he pisses me off much of the time... I wear one for my supervisor... so she doesn't see how incompetent I think she is... I'm sure there are more... but I try to get away with wearing as few masks as I can... I long for the day when I can be me... who I am... and I am that person.. with certain people in my life.  I just choose not to cause issues that I can't do anything about at the moment.. so I continue living my life and trying to make changes... I do see it heading in a much better direction... but it's amazing how just being and saying everything you want to be and say... is so invigorating...  I appreciate the ability to get to do that.  It goes far beyond the distance between us.. and the distance doesn't matter... it's a minor inconvenience..  I don't see how other people choose to be... someone different.. to hide who they are... on purpose... and so many people do it.. I've been online for awhile now... several years... and I've learned that almost everyone retreats to a fantasy persona online.. it shouldn't be that way... because they choose to live a lie.. it really doesn't matter if you even take it offline.. you can still lie about who you are... and the way things are... I don't ever want to get pulled into that... I am certain I have been... several times in the past... but once you can shed the lies.. and be open.. honest.. and not hide anything... and even moreso... have someone accept you without the masks... it truly is amazing.  There are always things in everyone's past... mistakes we've made... things we have done we're not proud of... but we can't change that.... and it IS in the past... so people have two choices... move on... or hang on to all the crap... and be the type of person that can't let go... but if you can't let go... you really can't move forward.  I've let go of my past quite awhile back... it's there... in the past... and I can remember it... but I understand what it is... it's over.. done... and I'm actually glad of that.  There's so much that each of us would like to erase... but that's insanity... it all goes into making us who we are... each mistake makes us stronger.. teaches us so much more than just words will ever do...  I look at my mistakes.. and realize that because of them... I've learned what I don't want in life... it's taken me awhile to get to this point... but it's where I am now... and where I want to be... Time moves forward.. and so should we. 

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