Life goes on...

Life is about changes I suppose... many things change while others stay the same... I'm making an active effort to make my life better.. at least from a mental and emotional standpoint.  I won't say I don't care about anything... but I take everything with a grain of salt.. meaning that I choose not to dwell on any one subject.  I am still getting up early in the morning.. to work my 70 hour workweek... it's sometimes difficult to see why I'm subjecting myself to the stress of so much work.. I'm certain that the overtime I am getting now is limited...or will be limited in the near future.. so I try to keep my mind occupied while I can.. one thing I won't miss is getting up at 4 am to get ready for work on time.  I suppose I could get up 15 minutes later and not blog.. but I feel like this blog is a mental health outlet.   Mental health.. what is that?  I think that very few people can actually say they are in excellent mental health. We all have constant worries.. regrets.. trials.. suffering.. and all we can do is try to cope with it.. there are many different kinds of mental stress.. and talking with a few of my friends helps me to realize that everyone has their problems.. just different kinds.. and each of us has to deal with our own kind of pain.  I have made my blog, semi-public.. linking it to a profile on a site I attend.. so I have removed links to other pages where people may be sharing their private feelings.  It's nothing personal.. my taking them down.. I am just as proud to call my friends.. friends.. as I ever have been.. I just try to respect their privacy.  I am beginning to heal.. even I see that.. I still see a long road ahead... and life could still get bumpy at times... My beliefs are the same now as they were a couple of months ago... other than now.. I'm trying to not let my negative feelings control my life.. they're still there.. as strong as ever. ...but even though I know I've used this title before... it seems to be well suited for the way I feel today... especially after hearing the Beatles singing Obladi Oblada... Life goes on.

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