I prefer quality over quantity.

so... sometimes I can come off as a bit.. elitist.. I am aware of that.. I tend to be a bit... self-centered at times.. and focused only on things in my life.  I actually believe we should all be that way... to a point.. if we don't take care of ourselves.. we miss out.. not saying that we should trounce the people around us..  but it seems pointless not to take care of ourselves... I love doing things for others.. and being there for my friends..  I do sometimes try to take the path of least resistance.. and in doing so.. sometimes cause more headaches in the long run.. but I know what I need to do.. and feel I have the support of the people in my life to get those things done.  I feel like I am still in limbo sometimes... and wish so much to get on with my future.. I want to explore possibilities.. and be more active.. I am sometimes resentful for having to sit and wait.. but I should only hold myself responsible for that.  We all make our beds.. and then we have to lie in them.  I am hopeful that my situation will change for the better... but I am also mindful that I won't make it difficult on the most important people in my life.

I am supposed to be working now.. but it's very difficult to find a lot of motivation based on the fact that everything I'm doing may be usurped by the powers that be in the management structure existing here.  I suppose that I am paid for doing my job.. and by the standards set forth, I am doing a much better job than those around me... still it's not up to my standards.. which brings us back to my elitist attitude... I believe a person is no better than the principles he or she holds him/herself to... I also believe that we should set those standards high.. maybe not so high that we can't achieve them.. but high enough sometimes to challenge us.. even in our everyday activities.. if a person doesn't set goals.. and try to achieve them.. they will never live up to their full potential.. and will never be truly happy... they don't have to set formal goals.. but something in our minds should push us to be better than what we are... once we are complacent in our daily lives.. we cease to move forward.... we become stagnant... we fail at growing.. I choose my path each day...  with each decision I make.. I can't always understand what others are going through.. I try to do my best.. as I have a wonderful assortment of people who support me.. even if that assortment is very few. As far as my friends are concerned.. I prefer quality over quantity.