I Will Soon Find Out.

It's finally official... I'm completely insane... well... that's not official.. but perhaps true... what I'm talking about is my new job.  I've gotten official word to report on January 11. It's both a wonderful thing... and a sad thing at the same time.  I'm finally headed in a direction I've wanted to go... just for me.. at the same time, I'm going to miss my little girls.. even though they're not quite so little anymore. I am going to continue to talk daily... and we will Skype often... but it's not exactly the same... I will only get to hug them a few times a year...  That in itself is what makes it sad. I knew it was coming to this point, but I can't have my cake and eat it too.. I am certain things will change with us... but I'm hoping they don't grow to resent the fact that I moved out. I love them both more than anything else on the planet... and I always will..  Sometimes, I feel a bit selfish at pursing the life I want... I don't even know if I will be successful at it... I just know that I need to do this... I am glad I seem to have their support. I will always be there to support them at ever major junction of their life. I always hear about other people divorcing... and the families splitting up, but I really don't know what it's  like yet... I will soon find out. 

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