Someone Is Liable To Get Cut.

Things are looking better... and worse... and better... Financially, things are right on track ...and it looks like I'll be in a good position to buy a house very soon.  As far as socially... my life is a void of nothingness at the moment. It's my own fault... but I can deal with it. I wonder why I seem so... bi-polar at times... I can see it in myself.  I think it's because of a backbuild of semen... I seem to be quite a bit more mellow after I masturbate... maybe I should start every day with a session.  I don't have to worry about it affecting my sex life... because that is non-existent as well. I have always thought I'd end up differently than I have.  But I think that everyone has a different idea of where their life is heading.  Our paths collide with others... and then people move on their separate ways.  I use to think that people were more permanent, but that's not my mode of thought anymore... at least not in a social sense.  I do have a few friends in my life that never became a full blown relationship... I guess that's why we can still remain friends. I don't want to ever jeopardize the sporadic conversations I do have with them.  I stay away from the sites I frequented... as a matter of fact I stay away from any flirting or dating site.. and have for quite a bit now. I choose to be weary of anyone interested in dating.  At this point in my life, I realize how broken I am... and how broken most everyone else is... there's no point in throwing all those broken pieces in one pot... someone is liable to get cut.  

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