I Just Need Motivation.
So... it's been awhile..
Currently we have about 8 inches of snow... here it is the middle of March.. and we get the biggest snowfall of the season. Not much has changed in my life... I kinda think I'm in neutral at the moment. I don't talk to anybody on a regular basis... my dating habits haven't changed. Part of me isn't sure what is going on... but I've grown accustomed to the way things are. I'm still house hunting... but I'm thinking maybe I'm too picky. I am almost debt free...except for my vehicle which I still owe for another 3 1/2 years on... I sometimes worry too much about where money is going to come from, but I had a recent discussion with someone about faith... and I do have faith that things will happen as long as we put forth an effort in our lives. I believe I do put forth quite a bit of effort to make things happen.... even though I consistently get discouraged. Still I trudge forth... just because that seems like the right thing to do... it's better than the alternative... sure I could curl up in a little ball and just give up... but I'm positive that won't make anything better... in fact, I'm certain it will be quite a bit worse. I was one of a very few people that showed up for work today... it's nice to have a 4wd vehicle.... or maybe it's a curse... I have no excuse for not showing up. I'm hoping the overtime picks up... I was actually supposed to go to a concert on Thursday night, but it got cancelled.. seems a lot of things get cancelled in my life... I just go on... trying to keep my head above water... I'm hoping that God sees fit to help me out just a bit soon... in some way. I have this idea that we have so many aspects of our lives... and that balance is achieved by some things getting worse.. as some get better... I am almost certain everything won't get better all at the same time... so I am hoping to focus on the things that really matter... my health is one... I just need motivation.
Currently we have about 8 inches of snow... here it is the middle of March.. and we get the biggest snowfall of the season. Not much has changed in my life... I kinda think I'm in neutral at the moment. I don't talk to anybody on a regular basis... my dating habits haven't changed. Part of me isn't sure what is going on... but I've grown accustomed to the way things are. I'm still house hunting... but I'm thinking maybe I'm too picky. I am almost debt free...except for my vehicle which I still owe for another 3 1/2 years on... I sometimes worry too much about where money is going to come from, but I had a recent discussion with someone about faith... and I do have faith that things will happen as long as we put forth an effort in our lives. I believe I do put forth quite a bit of effort to make things happen.... even though I consistently get discouraged. Still I trudge forth... just because that seems like the right thing to do... it's better than the alternative... sure I could curl up in a little ball and just give up... but I'm positive that won't make anything better... in fact, I'm certain it will be quite a bit worse. I was one of a very few people that showed up for work today... it's nice to have a 4wd vehicle.... or maybe it's a curse... I have no excuse for not showing up. I'm hoping the overtime picks up... I was actually supposed to go to a concert on Thursday night, but it got cancelled.. seems a lot of things get cancelled in my life... I just go on... trying to keep my head above water... I'm hoping that God sees fit to help me out just a bit soon... in some way. I have this idea that we have so many aspects of our lives... and that balance is achieved by some things getting worse.. as some get better... I am almost certain everything won't get better all at the same time... so I am hoping to focus on the things that really matter... my health is one... I just need motivation.
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