I'm Not That Smart.

So I might be getting a bit more overtime at work... which I can definitely use. I keep thinking a positive change is going to happen, but maybe I'm overlooking all the little changes that are adding up and making a difference.  I don't know why, but last night I had severe insomnia... I was up most of the night, but I tried to limit my time online, because I knew once I got interested in something... it would be that much longer before I would be able to sleep.  I have fun bantering back and forth with people, but there's really not that much of an interest there to keep my attention... so I banter with whomever is around and will banter with me... I try to stay away from a few, because I know that they have issues with me... no biggie, I just go about my business.. I find that I am not all that interested in bantering with anyone in particular, and truth be told... I don't think most of them could actually keep up with me at my best... that sounds really arrogant doesn't it.. I haven't been at my best in awhile... I make some half-hearted attempts occasionally... and I go a round or two... but for the most part there's not really anyone that can bring out the best in me...

I started this blog yesterday... and completely forgot about it... I think I got the umpteenth phone call from my dad and just got irritated.  I should have come back to relieve the irritation, but that would be the smart thing to do.  Unfortunately, I am not always prone to do the smart thing.  I sometimes wonder why certain people think I'm smart.  I told my students yesterday that I was really no smarter than they were... I just had plenty of experience which exposed me to more knowledge.. and they had the potential to know as much or more about things as I did. I don't think they understood that. In a way it's true, but is intelligence just saying we know more?  ...does it have any thing to do with common sense?  Those are some interesting questions, but ones I really don't know the answer to ...because.. I'm not that smart.

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