"It Will Be... OK"

 It's semi-official... I just got a call today from my ITSS trainer on my last assignment... then later from the Planning section chief that's out there now... they want me back... I'm not fully qualified as I don't have my taskbook completely signed off on... but they must be desperate or something... there is no one else... and they need people. The fire is almost a million acres now... and has graduated to National incident management team... I'm a little concerned as there won't be anyone there to train me... as I'll have the whole thing by myself.  My last time out, there were 3 of us... I'm not exactly sure what's going to happen. I hope I don't have to set up anything from scratch as that's what I missed out on the last time I was out... I know what to do in theory... but it isn't exactly what I am ready for.. I don't generally get nervous when it comes to my IT work... but I want to do a good job... and things are consistently changing.. I'm taking a break at the moment, but I am supposed to go back out to Northern California... I figured I might get a call soon anyway... but I was almost sure I'd be with my original team back in Oregon... at least I should be fully qualified this time... or at least by next time. I will do the best I can and they'll have to be happy with it. The plan is currently for me to go out on Tuesday morning.... but they would like to have had me head out today... I still need to wrap up a few things... My mantra is going to help me get through this... "It will be... OK"

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