Under my Hat

So.. I've started going out some more... went Karaoke Friday night... bowling Saturday night.. got invited to a birthday party next weekend... I'm beginning to live my life a bit more... even if I don't have time for much travelling yet.  Most of my travelling this year and probably next will be back to Kentucky to see my daughters.   I will be making 3 or 4 week long trips this year. I will still do some travelling into the city during the weekend... Baltimore and Washington DC are just over an hour away... so I can find plenty to do there to keep me busy... and that's after I run out of things to do around here. I'm still in need of a couch. I want a particular one.. but that's just how I am.. I don't settle for less than what I want anymore... because then I wind up having issues.  I can wait... I am getting pretty good at that. I ... fuck.. another stink bug.... I lost my train of thought... the only thing I hate about living here so far.. is the st...

This my 6th week of getting up at 2am.. it's beginning to take its toll on me.. I crashed last night... a Friday night.. early.  Now.. at 3 on Sat. morning, I'm paying the price... hopefully I can grab a nap later... who knows..  I do know that my sleeping schedule might be screwed up for awhile..  I have 2 more weeks of getting up at this horrible time.. and then I can tone it down a bit to maybe 5-10 hours a week... if I even want to work that. It's pretty much up to me.   I love the confidence they put in me where I'm currently working.  They actually treat me  like a human being.  That's something I haven't had in a very long time.  I've come to the realization that I am the type of person that coerces people into using me.. maybe that's how I defined self-worth.. I know my past relationships.. even my marriage.. I sorta tried to become this... go-to guy. I think there might have been one or two people that didn't take advantage to a great ex...

Is it Friday yet?  ...I've had a somewhat busy week.. and it's only Tuesday.  Oh... Saturday night was fantastic... I went to the burlesque show. It was absolutely fantastic... and I'm not just talking about the scantily clad women... it was a new type of experience for me... and the comedy was off the hook.  as you can see by the time of this published blog, I'm still getting up at 2 or so...  which has its advantages and disadvantages. I went in yesterday and happen to look at my last paycheck... they seem to have moved me back to my old locality pay... so I'm losing close to 5000 a year... that adds up to much more if you start adding in the overtime. So I've been on the phone with them... also the center has had visitors from Washington... and on top of that.. my current supervisor had a talk with some of my students about not doing the Network+ or Security+ anymore... so much for "letting me run my own show" ...but I think I can straighten him ...

I have a bucket list... I'm not even sure what all is on the bucket list... but I hear of things I want to do... and then that gets added.  I'm in a place in my life now where I can work toward those things... I wanna fuck on an overnight train... I want to sleep in a castle... Irish... German...  I wanna see Vlad the Impaler's castle, but I'm not sure I want to sleep there. I need to go on a cruise.. that's one of my first bucket list items I've ever had.. I'm sure there are places I want to see... but to start with... a cruise anywhere... then I'll think about more precise locations the next time.   I want to drive across country with someone...  I want to visit Paradise Falls in Oregon... and pick up a voodoo doughnut there..  I want to watch a porn with someone...and act out random scenes...  I am going to a burlesque show this Sat.... I don't know if I've blogged about it ...but I'm pretty sure I did.  I want lots of things... but I...