Under my Hat

A new year... made my trip to see my daughters.  It was a good trip in that respect, but I am back now.   It is always a bit difficult to leave. I usually spend the last night with my uncle in Nashville... sort of a transition, I suppose.. This time, my dad decided to follow me back.  I could make this post another rant about how my dad is getting on my nerves and blah...blah...blah... but he's old... and his health is a bit worse... I'll deal with it. I have no recourse with my ex but to stop child support on my oldest.  She refuses to let me carry her as a dependent on my taxes... and refuses to discuss it... so I'm taking action.   That's just life... for each action...or inaction... there are consequences... it's time she learns that.  I am going to be a bit more hard-nosed about the whole thing now.   I re-read some of my old posts... and it appears as though I might not be happy.... but I truly am. I am very happy with who I a...

Lots of time free... but I've retreated into my game... World of Warcraft. I don't play with others there.. just by myself... It's something to keep my brain occupied. I am still happier than I've ever been.  My prison is of my own choosing... not one I can't escape. I have friends I spend a bit of time with... and I'm even seeing someone. It's not like it is an ideal relationship. It's more of a sharing of affection from time to time.. even if it's not on a physical level... That's what I was missing for so many years.  It seems as though I try to compare a relationship to what I've had in the past. I have said many times, that one shouldn't live in the past... and I still believe that with all my heart. ..I don't. I plan on living in the present. Maybe it is arguable that what I'm doing isn't living.. but I think most of us don't live our lives to the fullest extent. I still have long-time friends who contact me from ...