It's Been Awhile

I keep saying I need to get back to blogging... but I say a lot of things I never get around to doing. There's been so much going on in my life. I sometimes feel like I'm overwhelmed. I'm sure I'm not the only one who can say that. But it seems that blogging is a mental outlet for me to get things out. I have someone in my life to which I can tell anything, but it's not quite the same. I don't always need a response... or to share a burden. I just need a sounding board for my thoughts without worrying about a discussion. I'm hoping to get started once again. I'm off work until January 2, so I might get a few posts in. I hope I can start sharing some of the stupidity which is life... especially my life. I miss the witty repartee. I don't get on forums anymore. I still have a few friends I made there. ...and occasionally I hear from a few of those friends. For the most part though, my life has gotten very busy. I don't teach anymore. Now I'm responsible for behavior management on my center. Evidently I fooled someone into thinking I'm actually a responsible adult. I've been doing this for a few years now. I've been dating someone for over 4 years. I have said I don't plan on ever getting married again. My daughters still live with me... and they have some serious issues. I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. My ex passed away 3 1/2 years ago. I have so many things to get out of my system I could make this one blog entry several hundred pages, but I'm not going to overwhelm my brain tonight. I plan on taking things slowly and getting my mind straight with each post I make. There's just soooooo much. It acumulates when someone goes a long time without putting thoughts out there.... It's been awhile.

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