Enough for her.

I sometimes look back at what we shared.. and wonder how it ended for her.. I realize that we were so close.. and I wanted to be all she needed.. but I know that I wasn't enough.. It hurts when I know that I am not the most intimate person in her life anymore.. that she doesn't want that with me.. but instead.. with someone else.   I will support her in that.. it's all I can do.. if that makes her happy.   One day, perhaps, she'll realize that she will never find anyone that will love her as much as I do.. and she'll be able to come back to me.. maybe someday I can be ...enough for her.

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