Those walls are falling down.

So... Life is good.  People are okay... and things happen.

I almost wanted to just stop there and say .. that's good enough for the day.  I am better.. I am actually.. okay.. things are good.. I am taking care of things in my life.. I have cleaned out my pics of former interests.. I have done spring cleaning on many aspects of my life.  I have straightened up my friends list.. and are keeping only those that will not negatively bring me down... I hope to be pursing positive things for a long time.. I am still working at my job.. and I will be working some overtime... they want me to work 7 days a week.. I don't think I'm going to do that though.. the money is nice.. but I do need a day off every once in awhile.  I am hoping to keep some money coming in.. because my spouse is spending it.. well.. I guess I spend a little more than necessary too.. but I've cut way back. I still worry about my friends.. I want them to be happy.. but I see lots of bad decisions that will cause more pain and grief.. I will support them through it all.. it's all I can do.  I am sad to see any of them hurt.. but I want better things in their future.   There are so many wild cards in the future of most people I know.. it's difficult to determine who will be happy.. and who won't...  I never saw myself being as happy as I am.. as quickly as I am.. it's a shame that I had to hurt someone in the process... but I only can be me.... I am not always... ready to admit when I'm wrong.. but I was wrong about a lot of things... I am still ... thrown off balance at the rate my life has turned around.. from.. being completely melancholy to hopeful and optimistic. I did what I said I would.. I followed my instinct... my gut feeling.. and I am happy because of that. Things couldn't be much better for me at the moment... and I'm finding my walls crumbling.. those walls that were soooo strong.. reinforced...  but those wall are falling down.

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