That's Just How I Am.
Still no budget worked out yet... but they've made speculations that student enrollment will be cut by 1/4... The way the program works... we get so much money for each student...so that means our budget will be cut by 1/4 also... but again... this is just rumor.. because nothing official has been announced. Doesn't matter.. my plans haven't changed... just slightly delayed again... Waiting on my 3 year mark in August.. then I'm out of there.
I could use a week or two off... I don't know what I'm going to end up doing during that time.... but I will end up taking some time off. We are supposed to have our review in July. It is at that time where I look for the shit to hit the fan. If these people have any intelligence whatsoever, they'll see all of the deficiencies at the center... and we'll be gone soon afterwards... of course there have been major issues since I got there... and it steadily gets worse.
I am just not feeling the blog today...... I thought I'd put in an effort... but I don't want this blog to be a chore... or an effort. I make posts because I want to get things out... but sometimes I just want to mull over everything in my head... and maybe I don't want to get it out. I think that sometimes we all need a few issues in our lives to not be resolved.. it gives us something to occupy our minds... and lately even with the studying.. my mind just refuses to be that occupied.. I think about anything and everything.. and my emotions cover a wide range. I don't have the desire to play my game anymore... I don't want to watch online TV... right now... sometimes I just want to get out.. and go.. but as I've said in the past there is nothing to do around here... and I can't afford to go too far, anyway.
Life seems difficult at times.. for all of us.. but the hardships we face... are mostly our own doing.. we can try to blame others all we want... but it's our choices that put us in situations. If we were smarter about our choices, we wouldn't go through nearly as much as we do. I know that was out of the blue... but I just got finished taking my bath... and had time to ponder things a bit more... it's very relaxing lying in the tub... but my brain usually goes into hyperactive mode.. giving me time to think about all the things in my life. That's not usually a good thing. This morning I changed things up and blogged a bit before my bath... life is about change... growing.. trying new things.... and most people never get to the place they want to be. ...or perhaps some people just grow apart because there isn't anything strong enough to keep them together. at least that's how I feel. Just because someone wants something.. doesn't make it so.. words are pretty useless when it comes down to the wire... because it's your actions that will make... or betray you... so someone can say anything they want to say... but if they're not willing to back that up.. in how they act... it's all a lie. I am happy to say that on any occasion I can think of... I have been true to my words.. but that's just how I am.
I could use a week or two off... I don't know what I'm going to end up doing during that time.... but I will end up taking some time off. We are supposed to have our review in July. It is at that time where I look for the shit to hit the fan. If these people have any intelligence whatsoever, they'll see all of the deficiencies at the center... and we'll be gone soon afterwards... of course there have been major issues since I got there... and it steadily gets worse.
I am just not feeling the blog today...... I thought I'd put in an effort... but I don't want this blog to be a chore... or an effort. I make posts because I want to get things out... but sometimes I just want to mull over everything in my head... and maybe I don't want to get it out. I think that sometimes we all need a few issues in our lives to not be resolved.. it gives us something to occupy our minds... and lately even with the studying.. my mind just refuses to be that occupied.. I think about anything and everything.. and my emotions cover a wide range. I don't have the desire to play my game anymore... I don't want to watch online TV... right now... sometimes I just want to get out.. and go.. but as I've said in the past there is nothing to do around here... and I can't afford to go too far, anyway.
Life seems difficult at times.. for all of us.. but the hardships we face... are mostly our own doing.. we can try to blame others all we want... but it's our choices that put us in situations. If we were smarter about our choices, we wouldn't go through nearly as much as we do. I know that was out of the blue... but I just got finished taking my bath... and had time to ponder things a bit more... it's very relaxing lying in the tub... but my brain usually goes into hyperactive mode.. giving me time to think about all the things in my life. That's not usually a good thing. This morning I changed things up and blogged a bit before my bath... life is about change... growing.. trying new things.... and most people never get to the place they want to be. ...or perhaps some people just grow apart because there isn't anything strong enough to keep them together. at least that's how I feel. Just because someone wants something.. doesn't make it so.. words are pretty useless when it comes down to the wire... because it's your actions that will make... or betray you... so someone can say anything they want to say... but if they're not willing to back that up.. in how they act... it's all a lie. I am happy to say that on any occasion I can think of... I have been true to my words.. but that's just how I am.
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