It's That Simple.
For some reason I keep waking up early... like 4:30... Actually I woke up a couple of times before then.. but was able to go back to sleep. I'm really NOT a morning person.. although.. I can keep saying that.. and evidently I am becoming one. I have this fantasy of being awoken by oral sex.. and then moving into a sexual session that lasts all day... not being able to move after 8 or 9 hours... Just a fantasy.. I still have them.. even if I don't actually have the sex itself. I think our hopes and aspirations are what keep us moving sometimes.. Other than that.. my life isn't half bad... of course my job could be better.. but there are positive things there too. My home life needs improving... but I know I'm just in a temporary stasis there too.. so I can handle things as they are. I was beginning to wonder if things were actually going to change for awhile there.. but I am more hopeful now than ever before.. so it has given me a second wind. I've been "playing" on the sites... but I know better than to get serious in my flirting there.. I will "play" with whomever happens to be online... and I keep it public.. if I get the rep for being a manwhore.. so be it.. it's not like those people that really matter... my friends.. don't know who I am anyway.
I like being spontaneous... I enjoy trying to be creative... and one way I get my creative juices flowing is by the witty banter on the site... I think that's why I'm still there.. there is a wide variety of interaction. I appreciate that actually... even if I'm not particularly enthused by some of the people. I suppose that's what happens when you learn a lot about what goes on behind the scenes with some. It's not like I particularly ask anyone anything.. I evidently just have a demeanor of one who won't give away secrets... and as I've said many times... if it's not about one of my friends.. that I feel they need to know.. I have no problem with that. I like being a sounding board.. but never come to me about someone else I am somewhat close to.. because I seriously don't like keeping secrets from my friends. I do have a plethora of secrets locked away inside my noggin. ..and it seems like I get more and more continuously.. even with the limited social interaction I have. I think we all like to feel we can be trusted... but unfortunately not everyone can.
I enjoy helping people. I will go out of my way sometimes to do things for my friends. Sometimes that can land me in trouble. I have stretched myself thin on more than one occasion.. and the motive behind my help.. well.. I'm sometimes afraid it can be called into question... but I honestly just like to do what I can for others.. until they show me they are going to waste what they're given.. or take advantage of it. I will continue to do for others as I can though..and I figure that karma will help me out if I'm ever in need. I just hope that never comes to pass. I like being a person who can be counted on for help.. when I can't.. I do sort of feel a little guilty.. but I shouldn't.. There should be no person who can make you feel guilty except yourself.. Too many times we let others control us.. whether passively... or actively.. and that is detrimental to our emotional well-being. I am certain I've been on the controlling end of that too.. but I apologize to anyone that I may have been that way with. I think there is already too much passive-aggressive behavior on the planet.. and it irritates me when I happen to run across it. If someone wants or needs something from me.. just ask.. I have no problem with that.. and if I can help.. I will.. if I can't ..I won't.. it's that simple.
I like being spontaneous... I enjoy trying to be creative... and one way I get my creative juices flowing is by the witty banter on the site... I think that's why I'm still there.. there is a wide variety of interaction. I appreciate that actually... even if I'm not particularly enthused by some of the people. I suppose that's what happens when you learn a lot about what goes on behind the scenes with some. It's not like I particularly ask anyone anything.. I evidently just have a demeanor of one who won't give away secrets... and as I've said many times... if it's not about one of my friends.. that I feel they need to know.. I have no problem with that. I like being a sounding board.. but never come to me about someone else I am somewhat close to.. because I seriously don't like keeping secrets from my friends. I do have a plethora of secrets locked away inside my noggin. ..and it seems like I get more and more continuously.. even with the limited social interaction I have. I think we all like to feel we can be trusted... but unfortunately not everyone can.
I enjoy helping people. I will go out of my way sometimes to do things for my friends. Sometimes that can land me in trouble. I have stretched myself thin on more than one occasion.. and the motive behind my help.. well.. I'm sometimes afraid it can be called into question... but I honestly just like to do what I can for others.. until they show me they are going to waste what they're given.. or take advantage of it. I will continue to do for others as I can though..and I figure that karma will help me out if I'm ever in need. I just hope that never comes to pass. I like being a person who can be counted on for help.. when I can't.. I do sort of feel a little guilty.. but I shouldn't.. There should be no person who can make you feel guilty except yourself.. Too many times we let others control us.. whether passively... or actively.. and that is detrimental to our emotional well-being. I am certain I've been on the controlling end of that too.. but I apologize to anyone that I may have been that way with. I think there is already too much passive-aggressive behavior on the planet.. and it irritates me when I happen to run across it. If someone wants or needs something from me.. just ask.. I have no problem with that.. and if I can help.. I will.. if I can't ..I won't.. it's that simple.
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