Leave It At That.

Lots of stuff happening at work... and I've got to try to squeeze it in ... in 4 days... I go on a 10 day vacation starting Friday... not going anywhere... just need to get some time taken. I figure I can spend some time just doing nothing in particular... I'm also thinking I can get a few odd jobs around the house done. I need to fix a kitchen drain... I also need to cut a tree that's trying to grow through my front porch... it's not big, but it keeps coming back after I cut it... and it spreads wider... I've even tried rubbing salt on the small stumps, but nothing seems to get rid of it. It's like some people... very intrusive and doesn't know when to go away. I guess I'm like that at times, but I try not to assume anything. If people want me away, they need to say something... and maybe I'll listen.. maybe I won't.. I am the type of person that will distance myself from anyone who chooses not to be a part of my life. It's strange though... there are people in my life... that just watch it from afar... evidently with some interest.. again... I have no problem with that... it's just odd.. There are a lot of oddities in life. I have someone in my life that I hang around with... and it's comfortable... but it isn't going to go anywhere in the long run. I also have a housemate that is fun to hang around... but she'll be moving at some point soon.. it's something we agreed on when she moved in almost 2 years ago... I might be lenient on letting her extend a bit... but I'm also concerned that it will open doors for others to want to be more intrusive in my life. I'm happy having someone live in my house... but for the most part.. we have our autonomy.. and it works well.. I have no romantic feelings for anyone at the moment.. and that's a good thing. My housemate is just a good friend... my other friend... I think she believes it's something more than it is... although I've said several times that I don't feel that way... I just like going out... or staying in ... and watching a movie. I think that people put expectations on the way things should be ...just because of circumstances... it doesn't matter.. I'm up front on pretty much everything.. so I let things be as they are... and leave it at that.

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