Under my Hat

I wonder what it is that makes people competent. I mean what happens to make someone incompetent.  I'm sure you all have run across someone in your life and just wondered... how do they actually find their way to work in the morning/afternoon/evening?  I think a lot of people just have a bad day... then have another one.. and then another one.. and then just stop caring.  That could be one explanation.. I believe that some people are just too lazy... it's very easy to be lazy.  I have seen many times where I just want to do nothing... and rest on my merits.. unfortunately no matter how many merits you build up.. it seems that there are bunches of people who always want something from you.  I enjoy helping people, don't get me wrong, but I read from an acquaintance of mine not too long ago.. that if you don't deposit much in my emotional bank... don't expect to make too many withdrawals.... That's why I don't understand why certain people are my friends.....

So... I got married 17 years ago.. and then after 3 years my wife became pregnant with our first daughter... it was then that she started sleeping on the couch. I "generate too much heat" ...I might "roll over on the baby" ..whatever the excuse was, she moved out of my bedroom... and my bed. At that point, intimate moments became more and more infrequent. After about 5 more years.. we decided that maybe another daughter would bring us closer together... and give my other daughter a playmate.  So that was 8 years ago.. and since that time I've had 3 intimate moments with my spouse.... the last one being over 4 years ago now. I already know what most of you are going to say... see a counsellor. It's too late for that..  At one point, I would frequently walk up behind my spouse and put my arms around her.. but she always seemed to push them down..  she's a very kind person, but very old fashioned.  She is also VERY naive.... think Laura Ingalls on Little ...

I have come to the conclusion that mornings and myself do NOT get along.... When I was in college, I tried never to schedule a class before 10:30.  I love staying up late. Now that I am in a position where I must be at work by 7:30, I have developed a truce with mornings.  I will abide by the wishes of the fates that I must pull myself out of bed before 6 am. I will drag myself to the bathtub and fill the tub with completely scalding water (yes, I know that cold water would do a better job of waking me up, but I can't bear the thought of sitting my ass down in something so early that would cause my testicles to ascend up inside of me and shrivel to the size of peanuts.)  So, here I sit, while my water is running.... hoping to get my mind cleared up before I start my day.  It seems I have so much to do. But, I always have a lot to do. At the moment, I am finishing up a stint of covering two positions where I work.  They have hired a person in to ...

I was going to talk about some of the reasons we get sidetracked... and why we tend to put things off.. but I'll do it later.

It seems as though this is a time in my life where I have attracted an "idiot magnet."  I have people I work with who are supposed to be competent managers to call me up and ask..."Can you help me log onto a computer.."   .. a bit of background info is in order... I have set this person up with an account on a computer that is normally not his own.  After looking on my phone and seeing his number, I get one of those reflex actions that tingle up from the bottom of my spine.. and throttles the base of my brain. As I post more.. and include information about Mr. L, you will better understand. In any case... I tell this vacuum of wasted space that I have set up an account for him.. and told him that he wrote down his username and password... He replied that he was getting "central at dell"... and couldn't log in.  This confused me a bit and I then asked what screen he was on... which is like asking my 8 yr. old daughter to formulate theories in quantum m...

So.. I have decided to write a blog.  Not certain what all will show up here but as I have the need to get some things out, I suppose anyone who decides to read this will be subjected the the workings of my mind.  Why here, why now?   I have thought for years that I needed a place to put my observations down. I tend to start things like this and never follow through. I think that with the support of a special friend who is also blogging that I will find the perserverence to continue on with this long after this day has become but a fleeting memory.   It seems as though we all have thoughts going on all the time, but usually we never take the time to write them down.  I am a firm believer that putting things out there will help you to deal with them.  ...and if someone else is thinking the same things, then it adds a sense of "I'm not a total lunatic for what I'm thinking."  We sometimes wonder if we are the only one that have certain though...