I Am Looking Forward To It All

A year and a half after I was certain they would close my center... here it is.. still chugging along. It is as inadequately run as ever... and it keeps getting worse... which I was certain could never happen.... but it does. I am still moving slowly toward my goal... but it's a very, very slow movement. Still... it IS a movement. I don't feel like I'm spinning my wheels... at least not for the most part.  The work-based learning is still going on... only because I'm now at 6 weeks of use or lose time before the end of the year.... so starting Aug 1... I won't be working a 5 day workweek for the rest of the year... I will have 1 - 2 days off every week... some I'm scheduling Thurs, Fri, and Mon... to get a 5 day weekend... I have several of those. I am just wishing the people in our National Office... Denver... would get off their asses and make a decision about the fate of our center... If I had been blogging all along, I would have everyone on the same page as me.... but I've been slacking... not really feeling the blog... so I haven't been doing it.  Still life should be about doing what you want to do... at least when it comes to doing things in your power... There's a lot that we can't control... or change... or if we can... the change comes slowly.  I feel more optimistic about the future than I ever thought I could.  I know where I'm headed... I just am never going to push it... it will get there when conditions are right for it. I think most people make their mistakes when they try to make things happen before time.  The Byrds had a song... it quoted Ecclesiastes "To every thing there is a season" ...most everyone knows the lyrics... but few ever really pay attention to what it is saying... I know that the season of my life coming up is the best... I just feel that maybe if I were younger, I would enjoy it more... but because I'm older... I think I will appreciate it most. I am looking forward to it all.  

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