As I Knew It Would.
It's been awhile. Much of this year I've spent finding myself. I checked back in on dating sites.. I've been to the hospital and off work for 7 weeks... and since August, I've been overloaded at work. I decided to open my blog back up and see how it goes. I'm not even sure I know what I want to talk about, but there are times I really miss journaling my words in order to get my ideas straight. I have a few friends, but no one I'm even remotely romantically involved in, but that's not a bad thing. I think a person needs to be okay with themselves first and foremost. It takes a lot of time to be that type of person... to be satisfied with life in general. I think I'm headed in a good direction as far as that goes.
I just got back from Kentucky, where I spent the holidays with my two daughters... they just turned 16 and 21. I still can't believe I have a 21 year old offspring. I look back and wish I had done many things differently with them...there were way too many wasted opportunities. Now that they are grown though, I am proud of who they have become.... so maybe a few things were done correctly. My oldest is getting her associates in early childhood education and then moving into elementary education. My youngest is still making up her mind. It doesn't matter to me what they want to do. I will support them as best as I can.
Dad is ….well.. he's dad.. and he tries to be a good person. I've realized that he is the most generous and the most selfish person I've ever known. He will go out of his way to try to help someone even if he just thinks that person might need something he can do. At the same time, he also has no regard for someone else's time table. He gets something in his head, and it has to be done... no matter how it might inconvenience someone else. Sure he says that he was just trying to help, but he always has excuses for his compulsive behavior. He sulks up when you catch him in a lie. I suppose in a way I'm a bit like my dad... but I'm hoping to hang on to the best parts of that.. and leave the worst parts behind.
I had abdominal surgery in June. They rebuilt my entire abdominal wall. Now I'm pretty much back to normal... except for the scar down the center of my belly. It is fading though and might not be so noticeable in a year or two... at least I'm still alive. I'm taking insulin shots once each night... and working on keeping my cholesterol in check... I have no clue if there are any more medical issues, but I have a doc appointment in a few weeks. I might find out then.
I am still living alone... but I sorta have gotten to the point that I like it. I still would like friends to visit.. and I do occasionally have guests now... but my house is quiet most of the time. I spend so much time at work now. There are 14 vacancies at my center. and I am covering 3 1/2 of them... well.. actually since my manager has been out I've been covering most of his position too... his mother had a liver transplant in August, so most of the time he's been out of state. I tried checking in during the holidays with him, but got no response. I hope she's okay. At one point, I was working 75 hours a week.... now I'm limited to 20 hours a pay period, but they have to understand that it just all won't get done in that amount of time.
So life continues on.. as I knew it would.
I just got back from Kentucky, where I spent the holidays with my two daughters... they just turned 16 and 21. I still can't believe I have a 21 year old offspring. I look back and wish I had done many things differently with them...there were way too many wasted opportunities. Now that they are grown though, I am proud of who they have become.... so maybe a few things were done correctly. My oldest is getting her associates in early childhood education and then moving into elementary education. My youngest is still making up her mind. It doesn't matter to me what they want to do. I will support them as best as I can.
Dad is ….well.. he's dad.. and he tries to be a good person. I've realized that he is the most generous and the most selfish person I've ever known. He will go out of his way to try to help someone even if he just thinks that person might need something he can do. At the same time, he also has no regard for someone else's time table. He gets something in his head, and it has to be done... no matter how it might inconvenience someone else. Sure he says that he was just trying to help, but he always has excuses for his compulsive behavior. He sulks up when you catch him in a lie. I suppose in a way I'm a bit like my dad... but I'm hoping to hang on to the best parts of that.. and leave the worst parts behind.
I had abdominal surgery in June. They rebuilt my entire abdominal wall. Now I'm pretty much back to normal... except for the scar down the center of my belly. It is fading though and might not be so noticeable in a year or two... at least I'm still alive. I'm taking insulin shots once each night... and working on keeping my cholesterol in check... I have no clue if there are any more medical issues, but I have a doc appointment in a few weeks. I might find out then.
I am still living alone... but I sorta have gotten to the point that I like it. I still would like friends to visit.. and I do occasionally have guests now... but my house is quiet most of the time. I spend so much time at work now. There are 14 vacancies at my center. and I am covering 3 1/2 of them... well.. actually since my manager has been out I've been covering most of his position too... his mother had a liver transplant in August, so most of the time he's been out of state. I tried checking in during the holidays with him, but got no response. I hope she's okay. At one point, I was working 75 hours a week.... now I'm limited to 20 hours a pay period, but they have to understand that it just all won't get done in that amount of time.
So life continues on.. as I knew it would.
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