It's Just Part Of Who I Am.
Not really sure what's going on lately... I haven't felt the need to share... or contemplate.. so I haven't been posting.. or blogging. It's sorta like it really doesn't matter anymore... not in the "woe is me" sort of way... but in the sense that I'm just concentrating more on my job... 65 hours a week currently... and just trying to stabilize myself financially. I know the overtime will go away at some point, so I'm taking advantage of it while I still can. I've removed all my online profiles on any dating sites I could think of... It really just doesn't matter. I figure if something is meant to be... It'll happen. I'm not running... but I'm not searching either. I am working on my physical health.. my mental health.. and my emotional health... it all seems to be going rather well. I'm going to my endocrinologist this morning, hence why I'm not already at work.
I went to Boise, Idaho for a week.. Interagency Fire center ...that was back in April. I was training ITSS ...Incident Tech Support Specialist. I never realized how much computer equipment and internet was needed in fire camps. I'm hoping to start assignments in June. More than likely I'll be assigned in California... Montana.. Oregon... Washington area.. I'm a bit stoked for it all.. I'm hoping a few assignments will allow me to get ahead financially too.. I'm pretty happy with the way things have been going. Honestly, I can say I'm at a really good place in my life. I suppose it all comes down to following the advice I've been giving other people. Change what you can... and try not to worry about the rest... I'm sure it's a little more complex than that, but maybe not.. we tend to overthink things and that makes life much more difficult. There's no need in that. I've learned that sometimes I stay in my own head too much... maybe that's why I'm not blogging as much... I don't really need to sit here and stew in my self-pity... of course, now, here I am... blogging again.
I'm pretty sure that everyone has a tendency to dwell on the past... to let it influence their future... I know I have... and too many times I've focused on the negative aspects of my life... but I have a huge amount of positivity in my life. Sunday, I'm going back to Kentucky to spend a week with my daughters. It's my birthday next week, so I'm really looking forward to spending it with them. The separation from them does get me down occasionally... but it's something I deal with. I love them with all my heart.. and I know they love me.
I still have my houseguest... she's working out great… she spends many nights at her boyfriend's house... but there's still someone around to bounce ideas off of... I'm not home most nights until after 9 anyway, so we don't see each other a whole lot. My house is too big really for me to live in it alone... I've let some former neighbors store stuff in my basement... with my houseguest's stuff too, it takes up a decent amount of my extra storage space, but I still have an empty garage and an attic to fill. I'm certain I'll figure out something to do with it... although I don't mind if it remains a bit empty. I'm the type of person that likes to get use out of stuff though.. It's just part of who I am.
I went to Boise, Idaho for a week.. Interagency Fire center ...that was back in April. I was training ITSS ...Incident Tech Support Specialist. I never realized how much computer equipment and internet was needed in fire camps. I'm hoping to start assignments in June. More than likely I'll be assigned in California... Montana.. Oregon... Washington area.. I'm a bit stoked for it all.. I'm hoping a few assignments will allow me to get ahead financially too.. I'm pretty happy with the way things have been going. Honestly, I can say I'm at a really good place in my life. I suppose it all comes down to following the advice I've been giving other people. Change what you can... and try not to worry about the rest... I'm sure it's a little more complex than that, but maybe not.. we tend to overthink things and that makes life much more difficult. There's no need in that. I've learned that sometimes I stay in my own head too much... maybe that's why I'm not blogging as much... I don't really need to sit here and stew in my self-pity... of course, now, here I am... blogging again.
I'm pretty sure that everyone has a tendency to dwell on the past... to let it influence their future... I know I have... and too many times I've focused on the negative aspects of my life... but I have a huge amount of positivity in my life. Sunday, I'm going back to Kentucky to spend a week with my daughters. It's my birthday next week, so I'm really looking forward to spending it with them. The separation from them does get me down occasionally... but it's something I deal with. I love them with all my heart.. and I know they love me.
I still have my houseguest... she's working out great… she spends many nights at her boyfriend's house... but there's still someone around to bounce ideas off of... I'm not home most nights until after 9 anyway, so we don't see each other a whole lot. My house is too big really for me to live in it alone... I've let some former neighbors store stuff in my basement... with my houseguest's stuff too, it takes up a decent amount of my extra storage space, but I still have an empty garage and an attic to fill. I'm certain I'll figure out something to do with it... although I don't mind if it remains a bit empty. I'm the type of person that likes to get use out of stuff though.. It's just part of who I am.
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