No Definitive Plans.

I think I've reached a point where I am not going to worry about relationships anymore... they're way more trouble than they're worth... I just got out of a 5 month relationship where I feel I was more used than anything else.... it stung for a bit... but then I let  it go... like I try to do with everything else.  I sometimes think about it... and I really knew better than to try to start something with my attitude the way it is... but I maintained a positive attitude throughout... I just learned that most women expect you to read your mind.. and they have a difficult time speaking what's on their mind. It's been that way with most people I've ever dealt with... but.. I live... and maybe learn... I'm still not going to let this taint me... if something happens... it'll find me... I'm not looking anymore. That's not a negative attitude... it's a neutral attitude.. and I think  that suits me much better.

On the positive side, I've been on a fire assignment... they sent me to the VICC in Charlottesville, VA for a week.. I worked with the dispatch center there... logistics support. I worked with the Department of Forestry and the State police... it was an interesting gig.. I'm hoping to get sent out on the west coast soon... but all assignments seem to be Washington or Oregon... I'm on ROSS now.. it's a resource database for the Forest Service... I'm listed as available... so I could get the call any day.  That's what happened with my last assignment...  I had to take a student back to Princeton, WV... 5 1/2 hours away... on Friday afternoon... stayed all night in Beckley, WV... then drove the rest of the way back on Saturday.  I got the call about 5 minutes before I got back to the center... asking if I'd be available to go... even though it wasn't exactly what I was trained for, it gave me fire experience... and that is more of what I need at the moment... so I might just go out on a fire to get whatever experience I can.. I'm not really interested in doing dispatch, but I might end up doing that for a bit... I enjoyed my experience... and the State Police in Va. gave me some trinkets and a mug for the extra computer stuff I did for them.. It was definitely a positive experience all around.

The best part about it... Dad went home... I probably won't see him again until December... I'll be taking the last half of December off for annual leave... I have 18 days total of use or lose time... to take before the end of the year... then I carry over 6 weeks into the next year. Not counting holidays, that could get difficult to get all that time in. Like everything else.. I'm just taking it one day at a time... no definitive plans. 

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