I Never Want To Be Misunderstood.

I know it's been awhile since my last post, but it seems like life has hit full swing... lots of things have been taking up my time, but mostly work. I'm trying to keep up with what's in my life... but it does seem overwhelming at times. I am doing well though. I seem to be staying ahead of things. Right now I'm back in Kentucky for the holidays and for my daughters' birthdays. Even though I am dealing with dad's being.... well... Dad.. I'm okay.  Sometimes "okay" is good enough. I am happy that I'm getting to see my daughters. I am glad of the family and friends who support me. I've discovered that I have several friends in my life that support me... and I'm thankful for each and every one of them. I hope they all understand that I give my friendship to those who have earned it.  ...in my life there have been many that have abused or misused my trust and have removed themselves from my life. That's the way things seem to go at times... I have told several of my friends that if someone... including myself... are more of a negative than positive influence in their lives... that they should remove that influence. I am not talking about on a short period of time, but for a period of time that is markable by significance.  We all have ups and downs ….bad days and good days... and a brief bad period shouldn't define a relationship. I've been guilty in the past of reacting on a bad day... and have lived to regret it. I'm glad there are people in my life that can see past my shortcomings... and I'm lucky to have those that can disagree with me... and speak their minds.... I am always afraid I'll let people in my life that choose to internalize their thoughts and feelings until it comes to a point where it eats them up inside.  I lived for many years in that type of relationship... and it was only when it progressed too far.. that I learned that I should have spoken up more quickly. I am never going to be caught in another close friendship where I feel like my friends can't converse with me openly and honestly.... I make it a point to over-explain myself sometimes when I feel I'm not being understood, but I think that's my "instructor" nature coming out... I never want to be misunderstood.

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