Let Them Live With Their Head In The Sand.

It has been a few days since I last blogged... and I wasn't going to blog until I found out something about a situation that has arisen... due to not putting things out there for the universe to turn negative... but after thinking it over..  I really am not worried about it.. I was due to have a minor surgery but a pre-op last week has some abnormalities.. which has delayed it.. I'm not going to be concerned about it any more than normal... although at one time... I was a bit freaked out about it.  My outlook is that things are the way they are.. and I will always adjust. I've done that so many times in the past.. and me wanting things to be one way or another won't change the fact of what is... just is.  I cannot pretend to know the future.. I've explained that I'm not psychic.. but I've already forseen my own death at age 62... so if I'm psychic in any way... I'd believe in that... but even that is something that I am not worried about. I am taking the day off today... call it a "mental health" day... or whatever you want to call it.. I rarely miss work and the absenteeism at the center is atrocious. Next week we are getting someone in from the home office for 60 days.. and I figure she'll come with her "hammer"... to either help fix up the place.. or break it apart... I'm going to support her and live with the outcome of the visit.. because that's really my only choice.

I am still being myself as much as I can... after all who else can I be.  I am playing a bit more world of warcraft and have started watching The Walking Dead.. I was somewhat apprehensive about watching it.. but I've succumbed to the pressure of my peers to watch it.. and other than being somewhat graphically gross at times.. it's fairly interesting. I plan on playing my game.. and watching my shows.. and pretty much keeping my life simple.  I am still waiting.. to see what happens... and I'm guessing I will know something definite about my center by at least May 1.  There are always a lot of things happening behind the scenes that I'm not privy to .. but I've been right in my guesses about a lot of things so far.. so I just wait and see..

I have the ability to see who visits my blog... but I've given up checking that for Lent... it's just one of those things.. that I've grown accustomed to doing.. and even though it was difficult to break the routine at first, I no longer feel the need to see who was here.. or who wasn't... in fact I could not really care less.  If someone wants to know what is going on with me... they're welcome to read it here.. or just ask... I think it makes it easier for people to just read it.. because as I've found out.. most people don't have very strong communication skills.... or some people are curious and don't have the balls to ask.. suits me fine... I have nothing to hide.  I am not going to live that way again... holding back things from people just because I'm afraid of how someone will react.  As I've said many times.. things are.. as they are... and hiding things just shows that there is some mistrust along the way.. and where I will never trust anyone to completely honest with me... I feel no need to be that way.  I figure that in time... I might drive most people out of my life... but those that can't handle my honest opinion.. don't need to be here anyway. Let them live with their head in the sand.