I Just Get Tired Of Waiting.

So ...I wrote about my dad visiting earlier.. and now I'm not so certain he'll come... Seems he broke his arm.. and it's in a cast.. or splint ...or something... The thing is.. my dad is the type that would do something like that.. just to gain sympathy... I am not saying that he did in this case, but it was just after an argument with my youngest sister... and they're still not sure how he could have broken it in the location he was in... but it is possible. You would think dad wouldn't be coming now, but that remains to be seen... he's stubborn enough that if he wanted to come... he'd still brave the 11 hour drive with two broken legs if that were the case. I guess I get some of my stubborn streak honestly. I know I'm a stubborn person... and when I was younger... I was spoiled.. always wanting to have my way about things... I still want my way, but I'd like to think that I have opened up my viewpoint to compromising on things... and am understandable when things don't go my way.  It seems I've had a lot of experience in disappointment over the years... it really doesn't matter, anyway. I sometimes look into my past and see where maybe I've been a real asshat.. I know that I have.. and I apologize when I finally get over it... I think it's difficult for any of us to apologize when we think we're in the right... or when we let emotion overcome us.  I am a very logically thinking person, but I have many times when I let my emotions guide me... so I can do both... I think most people are capable of that..

Occasionally while blogging, I get a distraction... sometimes it's a simple as a phone call.. other times it's the buzzer on the laundry... even at other times... my mind gets off on some weird tangent.. and I end up going someplace to hash things out a bit in my brain.  I know that I tend to come across as some guy who is unhappy with his life.. and that things might be miserable.. but that's not really the case.  I have had an amazing day... each day when I wake up... there are wonderful things at work to help me have the best day I can... even though there are other forces that try to sabotage that. I tend to try to gravitate toward the positive stuff... I see so much negativity from my experiences with other people... that's both a good and bad thing... it's bad in the fact that I see that life isn't quite as good as it could be... plus it brings me a bit down to see other people hurting... but it's good that maybe I can help a bit in listening... and also it makes me realize sometimes how good I have things.  I don't know why, but I like to think good things are imminent.. I know they're there.. I just get tired of waiting.