It's All Worth It.

So... it's been some time since I blogged again... not really having a lot build up as I'm able to vent on a regular basis.  I have had some completely moronic encounters with my supervisor.  I dislike being lied about... as I'm sure that most everyone does.  It actually wouldn't matter if it didn't affect my performance rating, but as my boss is the one spreading rumors on me.. that's a bit of a problem. She has something on everyone in the department.... except me.. the thing is there is nothing to get on me.  I have an exceptional work ethic. That's why my class is doing awesomely.. and why I'm not all that worried about consequences... I am good at everything I decide to do... and if something needs doing.. most anyone who knows me can call on me and I will make certain it's done.  Does that sound a bit conceited?  Of course, it does... but it IS the truth.  I have always tried to stay within the confines of the truth. I've twisted the truth a bit in my past... but I won't ever be that way again. Everywhere I look around me... I find that people choose to do things that put them on the easiest path... I am sometimes like that myself... but anything of value... takes effort to obtain.. It's so easy to sit back and make excuses for not making that effort... then blaming consequences... or fate... or whatever.... for our lives that haven't gone as we have wanted.  We see ourselves as victims.. then we become that victim... whether we want to acknowledge it or not... I know I've done that.. We let other people define who we are when we are not careful... and I try to keep away from that modicum of thinking. Sometimes I still slip occasionally, but then I know how fantastic I am... and what I can do.. and all is right with the world again. If you want something from life.... you have to have faith in yourself... and do everything in your power to achieve your goals.  Then when you get there... it's all worth it. 

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