I know.

I don't like the times when I've lost myself... the times where I feel I need to act a certain way in order to counter ...or retaliate against someone's words or actions.  It is at those points when I have become someone I am not. Luckily, I have focus in my world now where I can overlook the pettiness of other people, for the most part. I feel as though I can't begin to express my appreciation for the people in my life. Sometimes, my interaction isn't verbose.. nor does it involve a great amount of activity... but still it's a bit of normalcy in my ever-changing world.  No one says that things don't change.. they actually do.. it's the responsibility of each person to make sure they try to change them in a positive manner. I spent too much of my time already wasted on matters of no importance. When I do that.. it gives merit to the idea that these thoughts or activities are meaningful... I have just been thinking about how we interact with others.. and to what end does our social interaction bring about?  I know I've seen people deal with problems in situations in a variety of ways, but I can't take my cues from anyone else.  I don't know how anyone else feels...not truly.. but I do know how I feel.. and can extrapolate that emotion and obtain a better insight. I have a special person in my life... and I know that future events have wonderful possibilities, but no one knows the future... no one can see the events that will take place in the next year. I am very hopeful.. because even thought I can't see the future... I have wonderful..feelings concerning it.  It's very difficult not to get caught up in expectations when life has completely turned around for you. I choose how I view my life.. and hope that my friends can take up the attitude I have.. where you make your own future.. things can be wonderful if you'll just let them be... believe me.. I know.