I'm glad of what I have.

This seems to be the slowest month of my life.. doesn't it always seem as though you are waiting for something, time just works against you.. just to make you wait that much longer... I am still working each day... but they've cut any overtime for anyone.. since the government is out of money. I'm looking for them to announce something about cutting the center maybe during the first half of July. if not.. then August at the latest.. we have a review scheduled for then.  I believe a lot of people around here are sort of weary at having to do so much  with so little resources.. For now.. it's business as usual.. that's what they pay me for.

I have a doctor's appointment this afternoon.. so I will head out just a little early today.  My father got wind of it.. and doesn't trust me to be able to drive by myself... and since he doesn't have my nieces and nephews to pick up (they're out of school) ...he has free time to come by and go to my appointment... I already told him about my upcoming trip.  I have a feeling that there will be several discussions... both with him..and my spouse.  There's so much in the air right now... it's very difficult to make any plans or decisions based on my current situation.. so... I wait.. and wait.. and wait..  Not a whole lot seems to be happening.. but baby steps... that's what I'm doing right now.. besides.. nothing needs to be pushed.. I am thinking there will be a long time ahead.. and I have no reservations about anything.  It's nice to actually be in this place I am in. It does get a bit frustrating at times.. but I can deal with it.

My friends probably notice that I don't spend nearly as much time online... and the reason for that.. is that I don't want to be tethered to the online world.. when I go on site, I don't post stalk everyone to figure out who is upset with who... it's none of my business... and if it concerns a friend.. I'm sure they'll tell me. I care about my friends.. and I try to ask what's going on... but I won't push myself on anyone... My friends.. can confide in me.. or not.. In the short time I'm online, I see a lot of possible drama... and for the most part.. I'm just glad it isn't aimed at me... I haven't been involved in drama in quite awhile now... at least not that I'm aware of... there have been a few posts I'm certain are aimed at me..  but I don't care... that's their issue.. not mine.  If we could all think that way.. relationships and friendships would be so much more stable... I'm glad of what I have..

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