It's Perfect.

Long day yesterday..  I took off work to turn in my rental.. finally.. and buy my new vehicle.. it's a bit on the rough side.. but very good mechanically... it's a red Jeep Cherokee.. seems to run great.. plus I got a very good deal on it.  I'm hoping to get some of the kinks worked out before I drive it very far... but it's nice to have my own vehicle tha I don't have to worry about turning in.. I might not get much better gas mileage though.  I have a very busy schedule at work. seems like there is something planned for several of the days throughout the month... plus now I have to catch up for yesterday. I'm sorta expecting that not much was accomplished.

I just found out about an accident of a friend of mine... but I don't know how to get in touch with her... I feel a bit badly because the last time we talked... I was sort of aggressively pushy.. trying to get her to see what she had with her S.O.  ...sometimes people are married.. and you know their marriage isn't going to work out.. but at times.. it takes time to get through things. ...so you can either wait.. or give up.  My outlook is.. if you give up... then your feelings weren't strong enough to sustain a relationship anyway....and I told her that.  That provoked a very volatile response.  I didn't mean to be crude or hurtful.. but I just wanted her to look back inward and see what she truly felt.. and that if it was strong enough... it would weather through this uncertainty in their relationship.. but sometimes you can't tell people anything.. you have to let them find it out on their own. Personally.. I have no problem waiting.. to see what unfolds... my problem has always been that I was the last to give up on a relationship.... at least one where I saw any substance. I don't pretend to know all the answers.. and I'm one of the last people to offer relationship advice... but I've made more than my share of mistakes...  this has given me some insight into what not to do.... after all.. if you can't learn from your mistakes.. then you're set to make them over and over again... Where I am now... I don't feel as though I have to be anything I'm not.. I don't have to explain.. or expect anything... it just is.. and it's perfect. 

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