Where We Need To Be.

Finally... this week is over.. it's not that it has been such a busy week.. even though it has been... I've been through busy weeks before... it's that everything I've tried to do, has changed a half a dozen times while I'm trying to get it done.. largely due to the ineptness of my supervisor... but I'm determined to give it my best and get things done.  I was going to apply to a position 4 hours away.. but it seems as though I'm not able to get access to the official copy of my evaluations.. any of them.. someone has dropped the ball and none of mine have been posted.. all I have are unsigned copies... so I'm causing a bit of a stir in asking for them... if necessary, I'll be involving the Office of Personnel Management... Someone needs to be held accountable for something... I will not hold my breath at anything getting done too soon.. luckily I have until May 7 to apply for the positions.

My spouse irritated me a bit this morning... I don't think she's even aware when she makes certain comments... but as my daughters were dragging their feet about getting ready this morning.. she comments .."If you don't get a move on... I'm going to make you go with your dad" ...she's said things like this before... and it sorta bothers me... I hate being thought of as a "punishment"  ...but I'll probably be in that category until I leave.

This week has been so hectic... I haven't had much time talking to my special someone.. but the nice thing about it... we both completely understand the situation... It's actually the first time where I don't feel like expectations are being put on me.. and I'm actually wanted... not ..required.  It's truly amazing to be able to be yourself... and not worry about someone having a meltdown... or clamming up.. afraid to communicate. I've always said that communication is the key.. but I believe this is actually the first time I've ever felt like the communication was free flowing in both directions.  I'm a firm believer now that things happen for a reason.. and despite our best efforts to be our own worst enemy... If we don't compromise.. we end up being where we need to be. 

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