It Keeps Me Busy.

 Hey... it's me again... for awhile now I really just haven't felt like posting... not that I felt badly... or that my life was in an uproar... but I have decided that in order to be happy, one should do what he/she feels like doing and maintain as much control over the life they have, rather than do things out of obligation. I don't really have anyone I have to answer to... nor explain myself to... and I'm pretty happy with that. Life is filled with enough obligations already... and to needlessly add more just gives a heavier burden on ourselves. 

a lot has changed since my last post... I'm still working a lot, but for the most part... I have a lot of autonomous-ness in the way I live. I still have the housemate, definitely platonic... but it's handy to have someone to talk to on occasion. and when I leave out on details... someone is around to watch the house... although she has lived here a year and a half now... we said at the beginning "two years max" but in light of the coronavirus stuff happening... and just the way life is in general... I'm okay with extending that a bit longer... she doesn't want to take advantage of my generosity.. even though I'm not using the space anyway. 

Yeah... coronavirus sucks... I missed seeing my daughters during my birthday... but several of my friends got together and threw me a birthday party... it was actually the best one I've ever had... unfortunately there were no strippers... but I really don't do the whole "stripper" thing anyway. Things have changed a bit because of the lack of students... and there is still a whole lot to do with a lot of teleworking... and distance learning... but I'm adjusting pretty well... I went out to Northern California for a week.. and that was a spectacular experience... it was difficult at times... but that's what made it even more spectacular... and I've learned I actually like sleeping in a tent... well... except the nights it was over 90 degrees when I went to sleep at 11pm... yeah.. the days were 14 - 16 hour days... 7 days a week... there was no time for really anything except work... but I'm sorta used to that. I got 70 percent of my taskbook signed off... so it shouldn't take but 1 ...or maybe 2 more trips to get the whole thing signed off... then I'm fully qualified.. and not so much just a trainee... still I need to get a bit more experience before I head out on one of these incidents by myself... I don't see that happening this year... but maybe next year... that will be viable. I got in 215 hours in for the past 2 weeks... so I'm eager to see what my paycheck is going to look like... a few more trips and I can pay most of my mortgage off... I dread tax season though. I may wait until that passes to start paying anything off. They wanted me to stay 2 more weeks on the fire... but I had thing building up here to take care of... I will probably end up going out again in a couple of weeks... I'm pretty sure I'll be in Oregon this time... but we shall see. 

My mantra has gotten me through a lot of the little things life has thrown at me... "It will be... okay" ...I really actually believe that. There's not a whole lot that gets to me anymore... and I'm in a really good place mentally... emotionally... financially... physically... I guess you could say I'm a pretty happy camper!

I'm missing my daughters tremendously... I want to see them...and I plan on going down in December even if things are still like they are now... I have a LOT of annual leave time to take or I'll lose it... next year... I need to better plan. I have a new supervisor... but it's good... he leaves me to do my thing and there is no micromanagement going on... of course I spend a lot of my time at work anyway. For the most part.. yes... things have changed... but at the same time... many things are somewhat the same... I rarely leave the house anymore... but it's because I'm not usually here to leave it... other than work.. it's a focus though... and it keeps me busy.