Under my Hat

We have the big boss lady and her entourage coming in this week.. all the managers are flipping out.. but there's not really anything they can do.. except try to baffle them with bullshit as they usually do and hope they fall for it.. I am kinda thinking that the center should have closed a long time ago.. but for some reason, they can't seem to see the obvious. I don't want anyone to lose their jobs.. well.. that's not true.. there are a couple that need to.. but in any case... I think the center could be such a much better place.  Sometimes I wonder if anyone there can really make that much of a difference while we still have the management in place that we have.  There is so much secretive talk and dealings going on behind the scenes.. sorta like in real life I suppose... but I am always trying to stay away from being drawn into that. I really can't say what is going to happen.. and I have very little say-so in any of it.. but I want to be out of where I am so b...

I wonder if what you eat affects your mood... I'm actually sure it does... to a certain point... but I'm not talking about short term mood.. I'm talking about your outlook on life.. for an extended period of time.. that is if you get your eating to follow a certain manner.  I have tried to get a handle on my eating.. and maybe not eat completely healthily, but not to glutton as much as I had a tendency to do... and I'm feeling much better... I'm working on getting my life back on track... and my plan is in place. I am just happy that fate and kismet seem to be supporting me now. I am all but certain that people believe my life is in a certain phase.. and that's perfectly fine by me. I would never tell anyone else how they should believe.. the fact that someone has something to believe in at all is a wonderful thing. We should always try to have some belief... even if that idea is completely foreign to those around us. I had a discussion not too long ago, and I ...

It's amazing how our bodies are sorta like this complex machine.. we're made out of all kinds of minerals put together in an extraordinary fashion... and somehow.. someway... it all just works.  It's really fascinating if you look at it from a science perspective... but it's miraculous if you look at it from a spiritual standpoint. Each and every one of us are a miracle in our own right.. we just don't see it... at least most don't.  Everyone is so worried about what happens next.. what are we working toward... and all other kinds of bullshit that in the end.. doesn't matter. Most people forget to live in the present.. and they end up watching their lives pass them by.  I'm not saying that we shouldn't think about the future.. and work toward a goal.. all I'm saying is that life is a journey... enjoy the trip. We get caught up in everyone else's lives and how they influence us... but that should be the other way around... I might come off as...

I haven't been as steady with my blogs as I have in the past... I guess there's just a lot of things that I post about and get out of my system. Still there is quite a bit in the way of opinions I have... whether that's a good thing or bad thing remains to be seen. I suppose there's always things we can talk about whether we feel an extreme amount of passion for them or not. For the most part, I think maybe I've gotten a bit lazy and am in such a good place I choose to just relax and not stir the pot.... but sometimes.. the pot needs to be stirred.. people need to have their thoughts provoked a bit. I don't like creating drama, but I still have an opinion and I'm going to share it with those people who want to read it. I am fairly active on two sites at the moment.. one of which was recently hacked to the point where it is currently being rebuilt. My whole outlook is are people so freakin' desperate that they just want to cause problems?  I mean.. if ...

On my path to self discovery, I've sort of lost sight of why I was getting there. I want to be happy... but I need to maintain my focus in order not to lose myself completely. I currently have the support in my life that I feel I need for that. I don't have to be any certain thing for any particular person.. I can just be me.. and that's good enough. It's not often that we can feel that way... most of the time, we get locked into having someone depend on us for one thing or another... not because they intend to.. but just because they are so lacking and needing something in their lives so badly... they want someone to fill that void. I'm glad to have found someone that enjoys my company the way I am.. I've always said.. I want to be with someone who WANTS me to be in their life.. but doesn't NEED me there.. a type of independence if you will. Still it's my fault that I made myself an integral part of the lives I've touched... causing a certain depen...

October is going to be a wonderful month.. I just know it.  I'm actually positive.. did you ever think you'd see  that again?  It's actually an amazing feeling... and  I'd forgotten how good it felt..actually.. there are some new feelings.. they're wonderful.. but completely indescribable. There are some people in this world that believe in soulmates... and to be honest, for me.. the verdict was still out.. but when you find someone who can finish your sentences... that shares the same brain in.. not only one or two.. or even a dozen things.. but in EVERYTHING... it's difficult not to believe.. Scary thought huh.. that someone can have my thoughts.. my attitudes ..trapped in another body.. It's freakily uncanny at times.. I wonder if things can be "too perfect" ...I have already let myself do something I said I never would again.. fall.. well.. climb down from my tower.. I won't even say she came up.. it was entirely me. She never pursued me.....