It Is Our Actions That Define Us.

Do you ever notice how some people seem destined to live out the same scenario over and over again.   And if you're looking from outside the box, you can see it as plain as day... the mistakes certain people make.  Of course if you're inside the box... things aren't quite so easily noticed...  I just feel like I can say things to certain people.. and even though I'm trying to help.. it's a neverending cycle of destructive behavior.  so... do we leave people alone.. and just let them find out again... and again... and again.. that they've made the same mistake?   ...or do we once more throw our two cents in there and try to give that advice that continues to fall on deaf ears.  I guess it comes down to what we think of ourselves.  I suppose I keep saying something because I know at least I try.. and continue to try to help someone I consider a friend... even though I know my efforts are fruitless. We all have some type of destructive behavior.  I'm sure I do.. I may even alternate in my efforts to be steering my life in a not-so-positive direction.  In the end, I have to make choices that I can live with.

I think that many of us have ideas of what we want to accomplish, but don't have a solid plan on how to get where we want to go.  I will be honest.. a lot of what I do.. I make up as I go along. I know I've made mistakes... as I've said many times before.  I will make more.  I sometimes wonder how I ended up where I am now... I live most things about how I feel from day-to-day life, but I want ... more.. I don't know what more I'm searching for..  We all have to play out the hands that we are holding... I suppose not so long ago... I got a re-deal.  I won't be shuffling the deck anymore, so I need to make certain I make smart choices as I go along.

I don't want to make anyone a part of my life that doesn't want to be in it. ..and I don't want to give anyone a more important role than what they're willing to take on.. That's why it's imperative that I continue to be a bit selfish and make myself the primary focus of things. I think that's how we end up screwing ourselves over... by giving other people importance they don't really want to accept. Certain people in our lives will come.. and go.. my daughters... are sort of stuck with me being their dad.. I do love them dearly... and I will be there for them always... but I won't thrust myself into the middle of their attention if that's not what they currently want.  I think people who want to be in your life... will make an effort to be there. Those that don't... well.. they will come and go sporadically.  Sometimes they will leave altogether.  I can't make someone feel differently than they do.  Words.. are just words... I've said that so many times.  It's a person's actions that really matter..  Anyone can fool themselves into believing anything they really want to believe.. but at the end of the day... it is our actions that define us.