It's Your Own Fault.
Not sure if this is what normal is supposed to feel like, but it feels pretty damn good. I've been working on me.. maybe that's a bit selfish, but it's what needed to be done. Now I'm doing as I please.. I went to the city last weekend.. just because I could.. I still have Dad trying to control as much as he can.. and yes.. that's somewhat annoying.. but I do what I want.. when I want... and I've never enjoyed my freedom more. Does that mean I'm throwing caution to the wind? ..of course not. I still make what I would deem as responsible choices, but at least they're MY choices to make.
I am going to start going into work at 3:30 am on Monday morning... for as long as they'll let me. I am supposed to go to take a student to the MARC station each morning... then come back and work on whatever I want... but I think once they figure out how much overtime money they'll be paying out.. it won't last too long.. maybe a pay period or two... but in that time I'll get a few thousand extra.. who knows... it might actually last the 12 weeks they're talking ... if it does.. I will be buying my motorcycle sooner than I thought. Oh yeah... I'm planning on taking lessons.. and getting my license. I've also already started shopping for my daughters' Christmas presents.
I spend a bit of my time doing housework... I won't let my place get in the shape it got when I was in college... back then, I really didn't care.. nor did I understand the importance of keeping things neat and organized.. not saying they're meticulous here, but at least I can see the floor :D I have also been exploring my area in my spare time... not that there's been a lot of it.. but I do get out much more than before. If all this white crap that's been falling from the sky would go away... I'd even get more exploring done. I'm doing laundry right now... as I've taken to doing every Sat. morning.. I hope once that's done... and the floors vacuumed.. bathroom cleaned.. and breakfast dishes done... I will head out again today...
There's also a chance I will be teaching a few nights a week at the local community /technical college. I will know more about that after the 19th of this month. I seem to be making a few connections professionally and socially.. but I still wouldn't have what I would call a close friend here.... not one that I could count on if I needed help. It does occasionally make it lonesome, but I take the bad with the good. I am on Skype with my daughters on a regular basis... it's not much different than I was back in Kentucky other than the occasional hug. I sorta miss those. I have good days and bad days about that.. but the good days are much more prevalent. I'm not sorry that I've made my move.. in fact, I strongly recommend anyone that isn't happy in their present situation... to change it... if you choose to live in misery... it's your own fault.
I am going to start going into work at 3:30 am on Monday morning... for as long as they'll let me. I am supposed to go to take a student to the MARC station each morning... then come back and work on whatever I want... but I think once they figure out how much overtime money they'll be paying out.. it won't last too long.. maybe a pay period or two... but in that time I'll get a few thousand extra.. who knows... it might actually last the 12 weeks they're talking ... if it does.. I will be buying my motorcycle sooner than I thought. Oh yeah... I'm planning on taking lessons.. and getting my license. I've also already started shopping for my daughters' Christmas presents.
I spend a bit of my time doing housework... I won't let my place get in the shape it got when I was in college... back then, I really didn't care.. nor did I understand the importance of keeping things neat and organized.. not saying they're meticulous here, but at least I can see the floor :D I have also been exploring my area in my spare time... not that there's been a lot of it.. but I do get out much more than before. If all this white crap that's been falling from the sky would go away... I'd even get more exploring done. I'm doing laundry right now... as I've taken to doing every Sat. morning.. I hope once that's done... and the floors vacuumed.. bathroom cleaned.. and breakfast dishes done... I will head out again today...
There's also a chance I will be teaching a few nights a week at the local community /technical college. I will know more about that after the 19th of this month. I seem to be making a few connections professionally and socially.. but I still wouldn't have what I would call a close friend here.... not one that I could count on if I needed help. It does occasionally make it lonesome, but I take the bad with the good. I am on Skype with my daughters on a regular basis... it's not much different than I was back in Kentucky other than the occasional hug. I sorta miss those. I have good days and bad days about that.. but the good days are much more prevalent. I'm not sorry that I've made my move.. in fact, I strongly recommend anyone that isn't happy in their present situation... to change it... if you choose to live in misery... it's your own fault.
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