Life Is But A Dream
Monday... just woke up... feel like sand is still in my eyes.. and my head is stuffed with sawdust.. well.. not that I actually know how that would feel.. I wonder who comes up with these metaphors... is it like someone, somewhere actually filled their head with sawdust? ...if they did... I'm pretty sure they didn't convey what the feeling was like afterwards. Yeah... I'm in a smartass mood today. I like it. It makes for an interesting day... maybe I can keep it going all week.
I wonder why it is... that my...
lesson learned... don't go take a long poop in the middle of a thought without first getiing it out there. I had know idea where I was going with my previous statement.... but 5 minutes in the bathroom seems to have terminated that line of thought. I know someone reading this is like "Ewwwwww!" ...what? we all have bodily functions... it's just that most tend to talk about them in more of a lackadaisical manner. I always wondered if... when I get old I would be the type to talk about my scars... and not have a filter on the topics that most people view as taboo to discuss... I don't know yet... but it seems I'm headed in that direction.
So... I did something somewhat stupid. I'm supposed to be dating someone... but she and I don't see each other very often... maybe once a week... if that... not a lot for only12 miles to be separating us. ...anyway... last Monday was her birthday... I was even off for it.. MLK day... but she wasn't. I bought her a nice new bicycle the weekend before... but that was like 7 days prior... so her birthday rolls around... and I guess I didn't think about it anymore... talk about a dunderhead.. I feel rotten about not even mentioning it to her in a text or something.... you would think as much as I like to bake... I would have taken a cake to her or something... maybe a card... but Captain Insensitive here neglects to do even that. ...that's pretty par on the course for where our relationship is heading anyway. She's a really nice person to hang out with... when we actually do hang out... but I still don't get the feeling she really has much of an emotional investment... any compliments are generally a response mirroring a compliment I give her first... still... (and I hate to put it this way) ...I don't have any other relationship options... and I'm not inclined to ever look elsewhere... I spent nearly a year after my divorce dating some ...well.. I don't want to disrespect anyone so I will leave that to your imagination. I don't feel I'm settling... I am just tired at this point in my life... and if something good happens.. I'll go with the flow.. if it doesn't... I'll go with that flow too.
I almost bought a bike on Facebook yesterday... it was a really nice one with a memory foam seat and disc brakes... I made an appointment to go look at it for 5pm yesterday... but I think the person selling it realized they were selling it much too cheap.... I was messaged an hour before that the bike was sold at 3pm.. Sorta irritated me slightly since I had already said I was coming to look at it... I just had to do something first... but.. I'll just have to keep my outlook that everything happens for a reason... sometimes that reason is I'm stupid and I got what I deserve... but that doesn't apply in this case. I will be more vigilant in my search when I see a great deal in the future... but... for now.. I'll try to row my boat gently down the stream... for as they say... life is but a dream...
I wonder why it is... that my...
lesson learned... don't go take a long poop in the middle of a thought without first getiing it out there. I had know idea where I was going with my previous statement.... but 5 minutes in the bathroom seems to have terminated that line of thought. I know someone reading this is like "Ewwwwww!" ...what? we all have bodily functions... it's just that most tend to talk about them in more of a lackadaisical manner. I always wondered if... when I get old I would be the type to talk about my scars... and not have a filter on the topics that most people view as taboo to discuss... I don't know yet... but it seems I'm headed in that direction.
So... I did something somewhat stupid. I'm supposed to be dating someone... but she and I don't see each other very often... maybe once a week... if that... not a lot for only12 miles to be separating us. ...anyway... last Monday was her birthday... I was even off for it.. MLK day... but she wasn't. I bought her a nice new bicycle the weekend before... but that was like 7 days prior... so her birthday rolls around... and I guess I didn't think about it anymore... talk about a dunderhead.. I feel rotten about not even mentioning it to her in a text or something.... you would think as much as I like to bake... I would have taken a cake to her or something... maybe a card... but Captain Insensitive here neglects to do even that. ...that's pretty par on the course for where our relationship is heading anyway. She's a really nice person to hang out with... when we actually do hang out... but I still don't get the feeling she really has much of an emotional investment... any compliments are generally a response mirroring a compliment I give her first... still... (and I hate to put it this way) ...I don't have any other relationship options... and I'm not inclined to ever look elsewhere... I spent nearly a year after my divorce dating some ...well.. I don't want to disrespect anyone so I will leave that to your imagination. I don't feel I'm settling... I am just tired at this point in my life... and if something good happens.. I'll go with the flow.. if it doesn't... I'll go with that flow too.
I almost bought a bike on Facebook yesterday... it was a really nice one with a memory foam seat and disc brakes... I made an appointment to go look at it for 5pm yesterday... but I think the person selling it realized they were selling it much too cheap.... I was messaged an hour before that the bike was sold at 3pm.. Sorta irritated me slightly since I had already said I was coming to look at it... I just had to do something first... but.. I'll just have to keep my outlook that everything happens for a reason... sometimes that reason is I'm stupid and I got what I deserve... but that doesn't apply in this case. I will be more vigilant in my search when I see a great deal in the future... but... for now.. I'll try to row my boat gently down the stream... for as they say... life is but a dream...
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