I Need To Get My Priorities Straight.

I now realize that buying a house is a very stressful situation.  I don't want to overextend myself, but I don't want to wind up with a dump either... if I'm going to buy something... I want to be able to be semi-happy there.. I'm okay with not being completely happy because it's been awhile since I've been there... I'm okay... good perhaps... but not great... Things can get better.. or they could get worse... and I'm going to be okay with all of it.... really what choice do I have... I can sit... and mope.. and feel sorry for my poor pitiful ass.... or I can just accept that some things are beyond my control.. and deal with it.  I think we are all spoiled to a certain degree.. I know I am... I like things to go my way... but I've learned how to compromise a bit along the way... and I can do that.. as long as I don't compromise who I am. 

...anyway I'm going to look at a townhome tomorrow... almost 4 times bigger than the teeny apartment I'm living in. it's a good thing though I might move in with a few rooms bare for awhile... I'll furnish them as I'm able.  I should wait until I no longer have my 320/mo car payment... or until child support runs out... but it's 3 1/2 years more on the car... and the child support I've learned... will go on the rest of my life.. even when they're on their own.  Alimony is another 8 years... tick tock.. I can feel that counting down.. and I'll be happy when it's over.

I love the warmer weather... it's nice to be able to not freeze my nut sack off when I go outside... I need to get laundry done... and dishes... but I wanted to spend a few minutes here updating since it had been awhile... I need to get my priorities straight.

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