I'm Too Old To Develop That.

Finally... semi-caught-up at work.. and there is talk of overtime opening up... we'll see how that goes.  I will be happy to be away from the house more while my dad is here.. I got everything lined up for repair to my vehicle... and the insurance got the rental scheduled... so all is good there.. I don't seem to be having any luck with my insulin injections so far.. they haven't hurt.. but they haven't helped either... so I need to contact my endocrinologist and see what he has to say.  I am a bit anxious for the warm weather to get here so I can get a bit more exercise...

I am logging into the flirting sites... just to get the witty remarks out of my system... I don't have much social interaction these days... just a few texts on occasion... but I can live with that. Dad hampers my mood for social interaction anyway.  I know at some point he won't be with us anymore... or at least that's probable... with my luck he will outlive me.. I don't actually feel like I can live my life until then.

I have these thoughts in my head... always battling it out... of maybe I should open the door and try to invite someone into my life.. in more than a friend status... but then I come to my senses and realize that only invites heartache and misery at some point.. I think our society has come to a point where relationships are looked at as disposable... my mind just can't wrap around that. It is my opinion that these lifelong soulmates are a thing of the past.. we are all spoiled to wanting more than we have. It takes many years and hard work to develop a deep, wonderful, meaning relationship... and let's face it.. I'm too old to develop that... 

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