Back to School
It seems for the past few days I've been getting up earlier and earlier... it's a good thing... my two daughters start school on the first of August, and I have to make sure the bathroom is clear by 6 am. They have to ride the bus around 6:30 or so. I have sorta grown accustomed to sleeping about 45 minutes later with the summer break. I suppose I knew that my sleeping late would have to end sooner or later.
We worry about what others will do when we make decisions that affect them... like when we moved back out here.. I knew they would have to spend close to an hour each morning on the bus, but they adjust.. just as they will with any decision I have to make. I still don't know how to tell them I'm going to move out. I don't want them to think it's their fault. I don't know how I'll make them understand that it's not their fault.. that their mom and I just don't think of each other as intimate partners. I almost think they already know.. but are just afraid to bring anything up. I mean.. how many other married people do you know that never hug.. kiss.. lie next to each other.. or really even SIT next to each other. when we ride in the car.. my spouse rides in the back seat with my youngest.. my oldest sits next to me in the front... it's been that way since the youngest was born.. and it just seems natural.
I think we all worry about how our decisions affect others. I was talking to a close friend who is going through a difficult time with someone who may have lost the ability to think clearly. Maybe I am insensitive, but I feel like that EVERYONE has at least a little reasoning power.. even mice learn how to get cheese... or a baby learns that candles are HOT... If someone treats you like shit.. and takes you for granted... then show them what it's like without you.. I would.. I am going to be away from the center for a few days.. I think this will give them an idea on just how much I do around there... even though I'm pretty sure they have an idea. They don't actually treat me like shit.. but my evaluation is coming up.. and there's no better time than the present to show them how valuable I really am.
My students had their first day back in class today. Not much has changed, but I think it gave everyone a chance to "charge their batteries" ...it really wasn't a break for me.. since I had to train.. and be trained through the whole thing... but it was a nice change of pace not being in front of so many students. At this time.. I have about 37 hours before I set out on my "mini-vacation" ....and I'm soooo looking forward to it.. just getting away from all the crap I have to deal with day after day... I don't mind if I have to put up with a few problems here and there... I just like to have different problems occasionally. I am certain things will go well.
My daughters were supposed to attend a "back to school" bash.. where they found out their schedule.. and got a bunch of freebies from some of the local businesses... but they were too tired.. (of doing what.. I don't know) ...and in their defense.. it was freakin' HOT. It has cooled down to the low 90's now.. I rode home earlier in my "oven" of a car. If I can surivive one more day of the heat.. I think I can look forward to a bit of a break in it. Come Tuesday though, it'll be ...back to school.
We worry about what others will do when we make decisions that affect them... like when we moved back out here.. I knew they would have to spend close to an hour each morning on the bus, but they adjust.. just as they will with any decision I have to make. I still don't know how to tell them I'm going to move out. I don't want them to think it's their fault. I don't know how I'll make them understand that it's not their fault.. that their mom and I just don't think of each other as intimate partners. I almost think they already know.. but are just afraid to bring anything up. I mean.. how many other married people do you know that never hug.. kiss.. lie next to each other.. or really even SIT next to each other. when we ride in the car.. my spouse rides in the back seat with my youngest.. my oldest sits next to me in the front... it's been that way since the youngest was born.. and it just seems natural.
I think we all worry about how our decisions affect others. I was talking to a close friend who is going through a difficult time with someone who may have lost the ability to think clearly. Maybe I am insensitive, but I feel like that EVERYONE has at least a little reasoning power.. even mice learn how to get cheese... or a baby learns that candles are HOT... If someone treats you like shit.. and takes you for granted... then show them what it's like without you.. I would.. I am going to be away from the center for a few days.. I think this will give them an idea on just how much I do around there... even though I'm pretty sure they have an idea. They don't actually treat me like shit.. but my evaluation is coming up.. and there's no better time than the present to show them how valuable I really am.
My students had their first day back in class today. Not much has changed, but I think it gave everyone a chance to "charge their batteries" ...it really wasn't a break for me.. since I had to train.. and be trained through the whole thing... but it was a nice change of pace not being in front of so many students. At this time.. I have about 37 hours before I set out on my "mini-vacation" ....and I'm soooo looking forward to it.. just getting away from all the crap I have to deal with day after day... I don't mind if I have to put up with a few problems here and there... I just like to have different problems occasionally. I am certain things will go well.
My daughters were supposed to attend a "back to school" bash.. where they found out their schedule.. and got a bunch of freebies from some of the local businesses... but they were too tired.. (of doing what.. I don't know) ...and in their defense.. it was freakin' HOT. It has cooled down to the low 90's now.. I rode home earlier in my "oven" of a car. If I can surivive one more day of the heat.. I think I can look forward to a bit of a break in it. Come Tuesday though, it'll be ...back to school.
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