Life officially sucks...

So... it looks like my mini-vacation will have to be cancelled.  Due to circumstances beyond the control of anyone, I have 5 consecutive days planned off.. and nothing to do during them.  This means I have 3 choices:  I can stay at home with my spouse and family and be completely driven bonkers, during which time I will be very irritable about having to cancel my plans;  I can go ahead and take another mini-vacation somewhere else by myself and be utterly alone for the entire weekend.. hence still miserable; or I can cancel my time off and try to keep myself busy to take my mind off the fact that it will be at least 6 months before I can reschedule my long weekend activity.  It's somewhat a no-brainer. I will be working, that way I won't have to come back to a shitload of work piled up for me to do, and I will keep myself active ...at least partially.

I've also decided that I am going to shave my head.. I think someone is right when they described me as passive aggressive.  I am somewhat irritated at the world at the moment.  I am going to take it out on my hair.  I'll show it..  I think I'll still keep the beard though.  we'll see how it looks.

I might take one day.. and just go to the movies.. or something.. I haven't really decided yet.  I am so far out in the middle of freakin' nowhere that it is an effort just to plan anything.  I know that eventually everything will be fine, but for now... I just want to go lie down.. and sleep for the next two weeks.  There's so much to be said about the disappointments of life.  I knew that it was possible that I would have to cancel my plans.... and I don't blame anyone. I'm not mad at anyone.  I just know that circumstances tend to play havoc with our lives sometimes.  

My family is out of the house.. as usual.  my spouse went with me and my daughters to my sister's house yesterday... my mom and my spouse just fell asleep on the couch.. exciting bunch there, huh.  My daughters played with their cousins in the pool.. and my dad.. kept a watch on them to make sure they didn't drown... Other than that, my weekend is about like most others... I DID change the oil in my car... so I accomplished something.  Now I might start playing back on my facebook games.  It's something to occupy my time while I'm not blogging.  Life officially sucks.

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