It Truly Is Amazing

So... my boss is wanting me to work on my program... to get the things I need... but at the same time... she wants to cut our funding for Network+ certification. I don't know where things are headed, but I don't like sending people out not getting the necessary training for the computer jobs that I'm supposed to be finding them. It just seems like more and more things are getting screwed up where I work... and I really don't want to be involved in it if it's going to change that much.  I'm looking more diligently to get transferred to another area. I think about the future a lot now.. how things will change... but I don't want to be so wrapped up in looking to the future.. that I forget about where I am now... I seem to keep hoping things change.. but then I become lazy sometimes... hoping that things will just change themselves.. I see that.. I think most people are like that to a certain extent... maybe not exactly "lazy"... just not motivated to jump into the unknown without preparation... still we can make excuses all we want... if we haven't put forth our full effort to make our lives better, we will end up screwing ourselves over by becoming just complacent enough to stay where we are.  I don't want to ever fall into that category...  I've seen so many people online do that.. well.. offline too.. they are like.. "poor me.... poor, pitiful me.."  then when the first ounce of resistance occurs.. they quit... "it's too tough... I can't do it.."  ...and honestly if someone chooses to feel that way, it's their right to do so... but I have set sights on what is most important in my life.. and I will strive to find a balance to maintain my daughters' happiness.. as well as move forward with my life.  I care about them... more than anything else... but they both know what is coming.. and they've had time to adjust.. even though it will still be difficult at times... I'm willing to be flexible enough to make whatever adjustments I need to ...in order to achieve a smooth transition for them.

I really have very little to say about the people online.. I have those that are friends... and those that aren't... and to be honest.. the people who have moved on.. and don't have time for me... I completely understand. I am not what I would call a busy person as far as online activity is concerned.. there are many nights where I will sit and not have more than 3 or 4 messages the entire night... which is perfectly fine by me.. I got tired of reaching out to some... and I can't sit and wait for those that are rarely online anymore.. I am a little saddened that someone can call me a friend.. and not make any effort to maintain the friendship.  Still.. life goes on.. and I am overall.. the happiest I've EVER been. I have been posting deeper posts lately..  I actually never thought I'd be this optimistic again... it truly is amazing.. and things are working toward what I want.. It truly is amazing. 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Not In My Lifetime.

It's 1:15 am.. I just got back from my niece's wedding.. and it was.. different .. not what I was used to.. but nice all the same..  I only have this to say about the reception... WTF!!! l guess I should give a bit of background information... my spouse wandered off doing her own thing.. as I prefer it that way... so when I happen to come into close proximity of her by accident.. she motions me over.. and has been talking to the head of the catering company... they have been talking for awhile.. and in a short period of time.. they have been getting to know each other a bit..   as I approach.. this woman.. who's name is the same as my spouse.. is saying.. "I just seem to know him.. he looks like John.. somebody"  My spouse then starts with a sales pitch of how great of a guy I am.. and what I do teaching computers.. and this woman starts striking up a conversation with me in front of my spouse.. she even talks about how handsome I am...   she mentions that she i...
Read more

Everyone has an agenda.

How do we know how what repercussions will arise tomorrow from our actions.  I am atop my tower... watching the world from up here.. I see so much lies and deceit from up here.. I honestly do trust a few people now.. to a varying degree.. I just don't know when they can be sucked into a situation.. or do things they wouldn't normally do... based on misinformation.. or their perception.. I see so many people get tricked.. into making poor decisions.. People are gullible. The world is full of traps and deception. I think sometimes people get the idea that life is a game.. that dating requires intimacy... I see people start into online relationships.. and they figure that the first thing on the agenda is to explore the sexual chemistry... online relationships.. if they're truely ever going to mean anything.. need to be treated like real life.. you don't just jump into bed with someone you are just getting to know..  the online world.. moves at a much slower pace.. as far a...
Read more

Better Off Without Me In It.

When I read over some of my past blog entries... I feel like I come across as psycho-depressive.  Sure...I'm not as optimistic as I once was... but life tends to do that to people over a period of time.. There really isn't much wrong with me other than having a very cynical viewpoint on life. I don't mean to make it seem like I've been done wrongly.. or that I am never going to function in life.  I know a lot of what I post is about how I am okay.. but I can't stress that enough.  I don't really need much more than I have now.. except maybe a change of scenery with where I am living.  Any one of you who has felt trapped in a room for years and years would probably come across being just as cynical. ...I am not saying I've had it worse off than anyone else.. I'm just saying my experiences have been different... so to judge who I am.. or what I am.. or am not capable of.. is completely unfair.. of course... life is pretty much given to be unfair in the fir...
Read more