It's Amazing.

So... my blog posts are a bit more infrequent... doesn't mean I'm going to quit blogging anytime soon.. it just means I must be dealing with my issues more responsibly... so I don't feel the need to work them out here... which is a good thing I suppose.. but sometimes I miss blogging. I did tonight.. that's why I'm here. I have so much happening in my life right now... it's a bit overwhelming... but I enjoy the change.  I did get another notice from the state IRS saying I owe 311.00 in taxes from 2011... and looking at it more closely, I think they're right... hopefully this will be the last time I get picked on... just another added expense that I hadn't counted on..  but it'll all be okay.  I think most of life's little setbacks are only just that.. setbacks... we should take them in stride.. and keep pushing forward with ourselves so that we can get to where we truly want to be.

I think most people tend to lose themselves when they enter the online world... People choose to be the way other people want them to be... well.. not only online... but in real life also. Most people haven't developed a strong enough character or don't know who they are... so they can't be themselves... they let others mold them... but if you choose to do that.. you will never find happiness... Sure.. we all like to fit with others... to compromise in certain situations... but never compromise who you are... you will end up losing yourself.

I had a discussion on marijuana the other day.. and it's legalization... I personally have nothing against someone who chooses to smoke and for a long time, I thought it should be legal... but after taking everything into account... my viewpoint has changed.  Let's say that marijuana is legalized... you know without a doubt that there will be more people who will drive under it's influence.. I'm not saying that would be as bad as getting drunk and driving.. but still.. it will happen.  I've heard people say that people who are under the influence of marijuana are more aware... but I've witnessed firsthand that people are more lethargic.. slower to react.. I've never actually smoked, myself, but I've gotten a contact buzz a couple of times.. Slower reaction times lead to increased accidents.. and almost certainly more deaths.. Now.. let's be conservative and say that there are only 100 extra deaths each year... who can put a price on human life... is it worth a life.. for some people to have a convenience of being able to legally smoke?  ...I'm not one who believes in collateral damage if it isn't necessary... of those 100 deaths... are you okay if even one of them.. is someone you love?  There are already too many idiots driving out there.. texting... drinking.. shaving?.. doing many things that distract them... why add one more to the mix.. why subject our sons and daughters to more difficulties trying to navigate the road.. to me.. even the INCREASED POSSIBILITY of one of my daughters dying isn't worth the risk..

I enjoy my conversations that I have now... but it seems most people have stepped back from interacting because of my involvement with someone.. There is no need... We have a trust going on like nothing I've ever felt... and it's amazing.. She completely understands that I had friendships before she and I became so close... just like I understand with her... and the feeling that I feel... it's something I've been looking to feel my whole life.. I just couldn't put it into words... There's no chance I'd let that go... much less go looking for something else.. and she knows that.. the feelings are reciprocated. It is enjoyable when things go so well without having to adjust who you are... I can be myself.. and that's good enough.. I make no excuses for any mistakes I make... but everything just seems good.. and it's amazing.