I'm Grabbing My Share Of It.

I'm getting old... or am I .... maybe I'm just becoming more and more aware of my limitations... I can still run... or walk as much as I ever have.  ... I am walking a lot at work... I think that has built my stamina up... and I thought I could do more than I actually could.. so I find myself running out of energy.  ...it could be my lifestyle now.  Up by 2:30 every morning tends to wear hard on a person.  Speaking of wearing hard.... that seems to be a more and more common occurrence. I have an erection fairly often now. ...in that sense, maybe I'm not quite as old as I think.  It's a shame I have no way to use them.  Well... I'm sure I could... but I'm a bit more selective than that.  I choose not to subject myself to circumstances I would regret later.  We all tend to do things that we regret not giving more attention to in the decision making process. What causes us to do stupid stuff over and over again... do we really hold on to hope that things will be better than the last time... even though we know differently?   I don't really have an answer for that question, but it's something I'll think about often.

I got my first check with all the overtime on it... WOOT!  ...I could get used to that... I still don't need to go spend-happy but I might buy a couple of things I've been needing... like a couch... and a kitchen rolling island... I need more counter space in my kitchen... that's my main complaint about this place.. well.. I've also permanently removed the battery from the fire alarm.. it seems to go off when I boil water... or open the oven.. even if it's empty... it gives me an inferiority complex about my cooking... like ... I could burn nothing. Things are looking great here... I'm gonna start getting out on the weekend and doing stuff... now that there's no more snow.  The washing machine downstairs is on the fritz.. so I have to go to the local laundry. It's not that bad... but 4 loads... washing and drying is costing me $13.50 ... which is much more than I remember the last time I went to a laundry.  On April 11, there is a NY troop coming in to do a burlesque act called Whiskey Tango Sideshow at the local Opera house.... I've bought a ticket and plan on going to see it... it was very inexpensive.  I might actually enjoy doing some things for a change.

I'm staying on top of my housework... mostly.. every once in awhile things get a little behind, but that's only because I only spend about 3 hours awake each night at home... It still does get a little lonesome here... and it'd be nice to have a friend to do stuff with every once in awhile... movie.. shopping... dinner... just normal stuff... but I guess there are drawbacks to every living situation.  I'm still extremely happy that I've made the choices I have.. and if I had them to do again... I'd make the same choices.  I'm finally getting myself on an independent track...and I don't sit around in my room all day and mope. Life is out there... and I'm grabbing my share of it.