Maybe Something Will Come Up.
It's Mother's Day again...
I tend to get a bit sad on days that remind me of my mom... I sorta feel like there are so many things I could have done differently that would show her a bit more respect than I have. But I keep my sanity by realizing that the only thing I can do is try to live my life in a manner that shows she brought me up right. There are too many people in this world that don't realize if we turn out to be monsters... or do horrific things... that's a partial reflection on our value system as we are growing up. Sure... our environment has some deal to play in that.. but even the environment we are exposed to... is still a bit of a reflection on how we are raised.
I have pretty much kept inside this weekend... watching tv and doing a bit of cooking.. I think I am PMSing... well... not exactly... but I think guys go through an emotional cycle that really has no explanation. I have tried to keep track of when I get moody... and it generally happens once a month... about the same time... this might actually be a good place to log that... as I am trying to get things down and out of my head. At the moment... I sorta get bounced back and forth in my mind of why things are worth the effort. I read this thing on Facebook that talked about a set pay for everyone... sort of a standard.. not a minimum wage, but a minimum/maximum wage. and things were taken care of... the problem I see with that... if there was no incentive for doing more... I don't know that I would... and I would probably gage myself by what I see in productivity of those around me. I do know that I wouldn't go that extra mile if there were no reason to... I like being dependable... but that's just for the sake of being reliable at work... I would definitely concentrate less on work and more on the social aspects of my life... they say it's less stress that way... but I just see it as a loss in work ethic for most people.
I sent out a few Mother's Day wishes to the few people I still actually message... and I got the thanks... I didn't pursue any conversation farther than that... because I know most people have families to celebrate the day with.... I am hoping to go back to cooking some muffins / cupcakes in just a bit... I have the ingredients and just need to get started... once I find the motivation. I should vacuum the floor too.. but I did enough housework to satisfy the domestic side of me... and I know there will be dishes and pans to wash later... so I don't feel like overdoing it. I figure I will watch a few more tv shows/ movies on my firestick... and then take a nap... then this evening I'll bake.. Other than that, my weekend is just as boring as the rest of them... I have my camera I could go out and use somewhere, but I just haven't decided what I want to do with it. Maybe something will come up.
I tend to get a bit sad on days that remind me of my mom... I sorta feel like there are so many things I could have done differently that would show her a bit more respect than I have. But I keep my sanity by realizing that the only thing I can do is try to live my life in a manner that shows she brought me up right. There are too many people in this world that don't realize if we turn out to be monsters... or do horrific things... that's a partial reflection on our value system as we are growing up. Sure... our environment has some deal to play in that.. but even the environment we are exposed to... is still a bit of a reflection on how we are raised.
I have pretty much kept inside this weekend... watching tv and doing a bit of cooking.. I think I am PMSing... well... not exactly... but I think guys go through an emotional cycle that really has no explanation. I have tried to keep track of when I get moody... and it generally happens once a month... about the same time... this might actually be a good place to log that... as I am trying to get things down and out of my head. At the moment... I sorta get bounced back and forth in my mind of why things are worth the effort. I read this thing on Facebook that talked about a set pay for everyone... sort of a standard.. not a minimum wage, but a minimum/maximum wage. and things were taken care of... the problem I see with that... if there was no incentive for doing more... I don't know that I would... and I would probably gage myself by what I see in productivity of those around me. I do know that I wouldn't go that extra mile if there were no reason to... I like being dependable... but that's just for the sake of being reliable at work... I would definitely concentrate less on work and more on the social aspects of my life... they say it's less stress that way... but I just see it as a loss in work ethic for most people.
I sent out a few Mother's Day wishes to the few people I still actually message... and I got the thanks... I didn't pursue any conversation farther than that... because I know most people have families to celebrate the day with.... I am hoping to go back to cooking some muffins / cupcakes in just a bit... I have the ingredients and just need to get started... once I find the motivation. I should vacuum the floor too.. but I did enough housework to satisfy the domestic side of me... and I know there will be dishes and pans to wash later... so I don't feel like overdoing it. I figure I will watch a few more tv shows/ movies on my firestick... and then take a nap... then this evening I'll bake.. Other than that, my weekend is just as boring as the rest of them... I have my camera I could go out and use somewhere, but I just haven't decided what I want to do with it. Maybe something will come up.
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