We're All Guilty
I should be a bit excited... I'm going to see my girls this Friday... but there's this sense of dread for the whole trip.. 11 hours in my vehicle.. alone.. which is okay, but it's going to be a constant rush to get there... I asked them if they would like to come back for a week or two with me... but I don't think they'll ever make that long of a journey, so I'm stuck with just seeing them the 2 times a year when I make the trip down there. I could make it more often, but then it just doesn't seem convenient with work and school.
I'm back on 2 of the sites... I think it doesn't really matter with most whether I'm there or not... which is okay by me. I am fairly certain most figure I'll bail in a short bit again, anyway. Who knows... I don't bail on people in particular in my life... but the social crowds don't really constitute an individual. I going to limit my involvement, even though it seems I'm there a bit more than I originally intended. I am steering clear of things that irritate me.... and no that doesn't mean certain people. I actually think that I've put my past behind me... it used to make me cringe just a bit when I saw someone I was involved with online... and I pretended it didn't bother me. Now it really doesn't. We all just continue to live our lives and I don't worry about what was... or what might have been. I might not be exactly where I want to be.. but I'm happy where I am. If my future path crosses that of an ex-involvement... I have no problem with that... in fact there was evidently something there that drew me to them in the first place... we both just evidently allowed it to grow into something beyond what it should have been... so mistakes were made... and life goes on. For me to hold onto negative feelings because of that... well.. that would be my issue.. not anyone else's. I would hope I'm not so near-sighted as to think it wasn't my fault as much as anyone else. At the time of any event, we all look upon ourselves as the victim, but in truth, there are few victims in life. We set forth a chain of events by our actions. Sometimes things don't play out to our plans... or even our liking... and we get caught up in the momentary ideology that we're completely innocent... but in all actuality.. we're all guilty.
I'm back on 2 of the sites... I think it doesn't really matter with most whether I'm there or not... which is okay by me. I am fairly certain most figure I'll bail in a short bit again, anyway. Who knows... I don't bail on people in particular in my life... but the social crowds don't really constitute an individual. I going to limit my involvement, even though it seems I'm there a bit more than I originally intended. I am steering clear of things that irritate me.... and no that doesn't mean certain people. I actually think that I've put my past behind me... it used to make me cringe just a bit when I saw someone I was involved with online... and I pretended it didn't bother me. Now it really doesn't. We all just continue to live our lives and I don't worry about what was... or what might have been. I might not be exactly where I want to be.. but I'm happy where I am. If my future path crosses that of an ex-involvement... I have no problem with that... in fact there was evidently something there that drew me to them in the first place... we both just evidently allowed it to grow into something beyond what it should have been... so mistakes were made... and life goes on. For me to hold onto negative feelings because of that... well.. that would be my issue.. not anyone else's. I would hope I'm not so near-sighted as to think it wasn't my fault as much as anyone else. At the time of any event, we all look upon ourselves as the victim, but in truth, there are few victims in life. We set forth a chain of events by our actions. Sometimes things don't play out to our plans... or even our liking... and we get caught up in the momentary ideology that we're completely innocent... but in all actuality.. we're all guilty.
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