The Best Me I can Be

So, I am pretty well packed and just about ready to go. I am hoping things go well... but I have to remember that they're my kids... I will love being around them for awhile no matter how things go.  I am dreading staying with my dad... but I'm ready to bite the bullet for a week.  I'm worried he might want to come back with me. I'll deal with that if it happens.

I'm still on the sites... I plan on hanging around for a bit... I'm feeling free to say whatever I want to... and I know no one takes me seriously.... It's actually an awesome feeling to have a place where there are no expectations and it doesn't matter if people judge you, because it's not like they are stuck being in your life. I've always taken things too seriously... Sometimes it's just much better to let loose and not worry about what people think.  I still think there are lots of cool people on the site... and we all screw up from time to time... I don't want to hold on to bad feelings. I can't live my life if I'm too worried about others.  Yeah... there are maybe some other places to go.  ...and some might worry that I am trying to work my way into a position to exact some sort of revenge... or maybe try to revert back to the way things were... Let anyone think anything they want... it's not an issue with me. I still interact as I feel to...  and that's really all I can say about that...

I felt a Forrest Gump nostalgia as I typed that.. I am able recall all kinds a blips and blurbs from movies on a whim... and since I don't really spend that much time with people in general, I find it a release to throw out vague references and lines from movies, tv, and songs as they pop into my head.  I know I have this outlet for some of my creative writings... and some of my witticism... but every once in awhile it is nice to have a bit of feedback. I look forward to positive interaction as my life continues to move forward.  For now, I'm happy with the days as they come and go... and will try to keep from making anyone uncomfortable on purpose... but I still plan on putting myself first.. as I am inclined to do since realizing that I am the only one that I can count on. If someone else wants to count on me as well... so be it... I want them to know I am still working on being the best me I can be.

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