I Don't Have A Crystal Ball.

Another Saturday night... I've been sitting here in my chair playing online gaming for the past 7 hours.. it's been a little stormy out... but I probably wouldn't be out in it anyway.  It's not very fun to go out and just drive... by yourself... I will admit that when I first came here... it was interesting to see all the new sights. I may have overdone it a bit... as the only places I'm not familiar with are a bit of a daytrip... and right now I'm saving money for a house... so I am trying not to spend too much.  Things are still the same... which isn't a bad thing... at least I know where I stand with people... and that's okay... I tend to overthink things quite a bit of the time... I should try to stop doing that. I should clean a little... but I will need to have something to do tomorrow... and that might give me a change of pace before I go completely stir crazy. I have found a few places I like... I'm now looking in areas that wouldn't be quite as convenient to the girl I've been seeing... but it's not like she makes the trip here anyway... besides... I have always advocated that people need to make decisions for themselves... not for other people... I will do that.. I have spent just a little thought on it... and I'm not settling for a house I might not want... I am going to take my time... I think we all just want things instantaneously... if not sooner... we have become that type of society.  I know that I am exposed to young adults that think that way consistently... so maybe that's rubbing off on me a little. 

I have been thinking about that too... 2 generations ago... both parents started working... so most children were raised by their grandparents... with just a bit of parental involvement as a disciplinarian.. then the last generation... expected their parents to help raise their kids... but these people were tired... working most of their life... so they didn't get as involved as grandparents... and the parents didn't have any idea what to do... so now.. you have a generation of over-indulged young people who don't get strict parenting... and who are given the idea they can do anything... and I do believe a person can do anything... but the caveat is... it takes effort... and as I said... the kids were just handed stuff... so they don't know the value of things... a good education... a well rounded home life... relationships... even I have fallen victim to some of these fallacies of thinking... if something isn't working... just toss it aside and move to something else.. That's one reason for the divorce rate the way it is.... we all want people who cater to us... or we are in such a hurry for an instantaneous marriage... we don't take time to look at the big picture.   Where have our values gone?  ...I know I've let mine slide in the past... and I tried to justify it any way I could... the problem is... no matter how one justifies something they don't agree with deep inside... they have issues with who they are.  I try to realize that I've made many mistakes... and I try to not let those mistakes weigh me down... most of my mistakes couldn't be rectified even if I wanted to... so ... why worry about things you have no control over... it's easy to say.. but a bit more difficult to do... I go over things in my head of so many situations... and wonder what I should have done... but then I realize that is fruitless thinking and I should be happy that things have turned out better than they could have.  I know I'm going to continue to make mistakes... after all... I don't have a crystal ball.