I'll Just Keep Drifting.

I think I have the political stuff cleared out of my head... I haven't thought politically since my post... or at least not significantly. I like the idea of my blog...and sometimes it actually does what I started out to do.... to clear my head and speak my mind.  I'm pretty sure everyone needs that in their life... otherwise it just stays up there and rots... festers... until it comes to a head... then pops like a pimple. I know that's a bit graphic... but that's my thought.. I'm sticking with it.
I am trying to get my oldest daughter to get her college financial information together... still... but it's like pulling teeth... slooooooow process and she doesn't seem to have any free time... yet when I talk to my youngest daughter... she tells me about how her sister is watching videos on youtube... so I don't know if she is purposely trying to put me off... or if she's just lazy. I can't say a whole lot... I'm pretty sure I had a bit of lazy tendencies when I was that age... and I still do.. occasionally. But I don't know how to reach her... I'm torn whether or not I should show her there are consequences to our actions... or just let it go. I could turn her phone off... she hasn't texted me in several weeks anyway... but then that would be me being petty... or at least it might seem that way.
I am trying to hang onto my sanity at times.... because life does seem to be out of my control... or becoming more and more like that.  I still do what I can... and I'm not giving up on trying... but at the moment... it's like I'm more a spectator than a participant in my life. I am still trying to be optimistic... I'm certain it is just a matter of time before things work themselves out and I'm able to take some action concerning where my life is going.  Maybe I'm just in a rut... but that's okay too... I can remember back to where I was a few years ago... and things are still so much better now.... even if things aren't happening... the possibilities are still endless and I have to take responsibility for my life the way it is.  I'm hoping to get a bit more overtime at work... that would help out quite a bit. I will have to wait to make any judgements on where my next step should take me, because there is quite a bit of uncertainty at the moment. ...but even uncertainty isn't always a bad thing. I am hopeful that a boost in the right direction will come along at any time. Until then... I'll just keep drifting..