I Will Come Out Alright.

I've been fighting a "pissy" mood all day... and I'm not sure why I am feeling the way I am... maybe it has something to do with tomorrow being Valentine's Day. I've felt like I've been sorta snapping at people all day... it's not anyone's fault that things are not going well... but I am still holding out hope for things to look up. I found out today that I might be able to borrow from my 401k... without a penalty... I just have to pay it back over 15 years... and that's where I plan to come up with my down payment on my house. I am pretty sure I can get 20k with minimal effort... and I know that will be a decent down payment... I will have to pay 50.00 each pay period.... which is viable... hopefully.. especially if I can knock out PMI payment with that... I'm supposed to be talking with a realtor... but she never has contacted me.   Not the first female in my life to avoid me.. although technically she's not "in my life".  I finally got contacted by my oldest daughter... well.. her mom called me... and she said that my daughter was afraid to contact me until she had some good news.... now I feel like a heel over that... I love my daughters... and even though things don't always go according to how I've planned it... I would do anything for them both.. it could be that I have a tendency to over-dramatize things occasionally... I need to stop doing that.  I hold out hope that all will be well.. I guess it has something to do with my faith... I have faith in God... I have faith in some people.... I have faith in myself... I love my life... if only I can start steering it in the right direction... I keep moving the rudder.. but the waters of life aren't always cooperative. ...but... I've weathered much worse storms than this... and I will come out alright...

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