Be You!

 So... the election was yesterday... and it's still going on... and I have a feeling it'll go on for awhile... even if it's decided... because most people can't accept reality... Do I think that mail in voting allows a better opportunity for cheating?? ...sure... but that's a part of life... you have to accept that most things are not completely on the level because people cannot bear the thought of losing. My issue is that when you cheat... or lie... you've lost... it might not be something that you cannot live with, but over time, people tend to lose more and more of themselves because they can't face truths. I know many people who lie to themselves so much that they really aren't in touch with the truth. It's actually a sad thing. There is a major difference when you say something sarcastically... or say something in fun.. knowing it's not true... and those things are usually agreed upon by everyone as being something funny.  Unfortunately some people choose to hide so much and cloak it in lies that they tend to try to live the lie... and this is a poor way to live life. I've always said that I try to make my own choices... I try to put the past behind me... and not lie about who I am... it wasn't always like that... I cloaked myself in untruths... and tried to make it through each day without letting people discover the actuality of the situation... but it slowly sucked the life out of me... and luckily I came to the realization that it didn't matter that people knew the truth... it is my life... and I'm the one living it... I chose not to let others and their options shape my life.  People only have as much power and influence in your life as you choose to give them. So many people have a hard time understanding that. That's why they choose to hide so much of themselves. I can understand a desire for privacy... and that's everyone's right... but it seems to make many hermits that hide away from the world... and only let out a false image of who they are... that's why it's so difficult to form strong emotional bonds with people in today's world.. and then people wonder why they can't find something meaningful... it's because you choose to hide most of who you are.. then when you form a bond... that bond is based on a lie... and when the truth finally surfaces... it's not so much that people are put off by who you really are... but when things are built on a foundation of a lie... that foundation then crumbles... leaving nothing substantial... they people choose to blame others for something they've build on the sand foundation. I feel like I've overcome most of that... and it isn't something easy to do... the hardest part is to believe truly in yourself and who you are... when you do that... you can show yourself to others and not base who you are on what they choose to see... Be you!

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